some nights were filled with sobs and gasps for air through the tears, others were laying in silence staring at the bedroom ceiling feeling absolutely numb. if we're being honest i️ don't know which was worse.
the sobs made me shake in anger and the sadness was suffocating. the silent nights trapped me inside my own mind and frustrated me just trying to feel anything. either way i️ felt alone and lost.
you were the living breathing cancer that consumed me. at first silent, it creeps up on you when everything is just perfect from then on everything crumbles. every idea or dashing thought you had of what your life was going to be is obliterated into unrecognizable pieces. you fill steal every thought, drops of happiness until you can't take anymore leaving the shell of once a person.
you stole my will to breathe, to be the person i️ once was filled with hope and ideas, to wake up every morning and feel the sunlight. but i️ refuse, i️ refuse to let you be my destruction to be the reason i️ crumble and crash.
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Randomthis will most likely go unnoticed but these are just some late night thoughts i️ have. give it a read if you want and some of you could probably relate
