Do you ever just look up at the stars and just think to yourself how beautiful they are?? But theres always that one star that stands out that makes you smile, that star was my star that i named after Harry he was the love of my life and this is not just my story but our story-----
Selena's Pov
I was sitting on the bed in the doctors office. Listen to my moms annoying conversation with cancer doctor oh right hey im Selena Gomez i grew up in a small town called the Grand Perrie i was diagnosed with lung cancer when i was 13 years old and ever since then my new best friend is a oxygen tank i carry with me 24/7 i hate it, but thats just life with cancer. My mom thinks im depressed and thinks i need help or something because the only things i do is watch Americas Next Top Model, read the same book over and over again, and i barley eat and i dont have any friends really.... but im here to say that i am not depressed
Mom:"I feel like she is depressed!"
Me:"mom im not depressed"
Mom:"all she ever does is read the same book over and over again, watches the same show, doesnt socialize with anybody besides her father and i but only when we talk to her most of the time, and she barley eats anything"
Me:"im not depressed"
Doctor:"your depressed" then my mom gave me an i told you so look, okay mom i get it!
Doctor:"im gonna switch one of her prescriptions which will hopefully give her body a little more energy, but the mean time Selena have you checked out any of those support groups i gave you a list of?"
Me:"no i dont wanna go to a support group"
Doctor:"well support groups can be a great way to make friends and connect with people"
Me:"people special like me?" I raised my eye brow
Doctor:"people like you" ------------------------------------------------------------------
Selena's Pov
As soon as we got home from the doctors offive and picking up my new prescription we opened the door to see my dad sitting at the kitchen table drinking tea while reading the news paper
Dad:"hello my beautiful family!"
Mom:"hey honey how was work?"
Dad:"hey pumpkin how are you feeling?" He said giving my head a kiss
Me:"fine dad just fine. Okay im gonna go to my room now"
Mom:"sweetheart come and eat something you before you go up there you need to have something in your system before you start ticking you pills
"Me:"ughhh finnne" if you didnt know everyday i had to take adleast 10 or more different kinds of pills. Its not easy having lung cancer i mean sometimes im just so miserable i just want to kill myself that way i dont have to go through the pain... but i know if i did that it would cause my parents even more pain there the only reason i have a reason to live i mean come on you expect me to just go on and have a normal life?!? Well i cant... i cant ever have kids due to my cancer, no one once to be my friend cause there embarrassed to be seen with me with someone like me... an i dont blame them i mean look at me i have shot hair (her hair is like when it was on third season of wizards of waverly place) im not pretty, i dont wear short skirts and dresses, i dont really like showing off my skin, and i carry an oxygen take everywhere i go. And plus i can never get married or fall in love because im gonna die anyway... i know i still have a year or two left but sometimes i can feel it and i dont wanna break anyones heart when it does im already gonna break the two people i love the mosts hearts when it does an di dont need anymore including friends.... i sat at the dinner table and toke 10 bites of my macaroni and cheese then i toke my 10 pills and went up to my room. I was sitting on my bed reading my favorite book ever its actually the only book i read and ever will read. As i was reading my mom came in
Me:"hey mom whats up?"
Mom:"hey sweetie i just wanted to check on ya and see how your doing"...
Me:"okay......"
Mom:"so.... how are you doing?"
Me:"fine"
Mom:"okay well good. Listen sweetie im gonna go to bed, but if you need me dont hesitate to call me or come to me"
Me:"okay i wont. I love you mom"
Mom:"i love you 2 sweetie goodnight" then she gave me a kiss on my head
Mom:"oh and sweetheart dont forget to be up for your support group tomorrow morning"
Me:"okayy..." i sad tiredly an yoning.... OH WAIT WHAT?!? SUPORT GROUP?!?? TOMORROW MORNING?!?? WHAT???
