(present)
I don't go to school. Im seventeen, and I don't go to school. I dont have any friends, and I live alone. Ten years ago, the little emotion I felt, hurt other people. Even if im happy, my eyes and body burn with rage. One day, I'll go find some help. Ill even end it myself if I have to.
What am I saying? I cant do that. I don't have the strength to do that. Im perfectly fine with the life I have. I have to stray far from gas, or alcohol though. Wouldn't want to blow something up.
I got up from my small recliner and headed off to the bathroom. I looked in the mirror and sighed. My eyes, were calmed for now. The dark red flowed around in my iris slowly. It seemed to pulse and glow like magma whenever I felt emotion other than blankness.
My body gave off a hot radiation that differed from regular body heat. Im not normal. I grabbed the thermometer that I kept by the sink faucet and checked my temperature. 127° F..... I should be dead. I should be dead..
Maybe. Speaking honestly, I dont derserve to live. I charred someones door the other day by knocking. I accidentally set someone in my complex's p.o box on fire. They didnt get their package. I burned a little girl's hand and she had to be hospitalized for 2 weeks, when I was only seven.
No one even knows exist. The landlord doesnt even collect my rent, so I just leave it in his office. The neighbors throw away mail that I rarely get, thinking they got the wrong address. Why shouldn't I make it so I dont exist? How can I make it that way?
The little girl ran through the grass, laughing and giggling. All of the sudden, the grass caught on fire and she paused. The fire engulfed her, not burning her even a little. The fire burned brighter and more furious than usual flames. Her foster parent ran to her screaming. The little girls cream colored hair flowed around her, like it was underwater.
The guardian stared at the child, lost in her eyes. They glowed a magnificent bright orange, red placed around the pupil. "What's wrong? Why are you looking at me like that?"
Then, the soil behind the adult broke apart, and something came up from the dirt. More adults, appeared from the ground. "Mother? Father?" The little girl questioned. The flames from the child's body traveled over to the hallucinations of her loved ones.
The flames wrapped around them, instead of repelling the fire like the child did, the flame charred their bodies. "Nooooo!" The girl screamed. The agonizing screams filled the air. As their bodies burned, their voices spoke clearly to the little girl.
"Monster."
"You shameful child."
"You deserve to die."
"Demon."
The girl cried and screamed, until the final words came. She wiped her eyes and stared at the burnt person through the flames. Her mother.
"Tomorrow. It will be done tomorrow night, when the people sleep. You will say goodbye, for you shall never burn a pure heart again." Her voice wavered as the flames traveled to her mouth. A single scream exploded from her lips, as her body fell and joined the others in the same fate.
The girl sobbed, screaming she was sorry, and that-
I woke up, sweating and gasping for air. It was only a dream. I looked over at the partly opened curtains. Rays of yellow sunlight covered the blue carpet, making a nice pattern. Its daytime. I have a full day ahead of me, until night comes. Tomorrow night, when the people sleep. I flinched. That raspy voice stayed with me even in reality.
