The Depressed Overthinker's Thoughts

I Feel so empty inside, It's as if i have no emotional drive, the time has come to decide if I want to feel this way for the rest of my life, drowning myself in my own pride, showing the world that "I have it all" when in reality I've just suffered from a fall. I'm indecisive, I fail to commit to the things I've planned, is this what life is?

I get so jealous seeing other people happy, because I'm so sad and all alone. In reality Im not alone but for some undecipherable reason I put myself in that zone. What should I do? Am I crazy? Should I Go to a Therapist? or Should I just wait out this phase? But the million dollar question is what is causing me to feel this way?

Wait! Why am I thinking about this? Thinking about the past? It has already happened? I can get over this, it'll only take a minute. I don't know why I lie to myself every single day because tomorrow I'll repeat this phase.