Why am i so lonely?
-I know i'm not. I've got the best friends and the best family.
But i'm like for no one the most important one.
It's not like i want to be the centre of attention.
But it's just like - everybody has this one person he would do anything for him/her.
And everyone has also other friends - which is no problem.
But i feel like an unnecessary person in their lifes...
I know i can count on my friends, when i need them and i'm really glad they're there in tough times.
But they are not really there in good & happy times...
Seeing them having fun with their friends hurts.
There was a time a few months ago, when i thought these people are like my second family.
But then they kinda left me because something happened.
And it wasn't only my fault and it's not something bad, just something akward.
But i didn't mean enough to them to get over this akwardness and start acting a little bit more like grown ups.
And hanging out together like we did...
Am i really that unnecessary?
But seeing them having fun without me, like i didn't mean anything to them hurts my heart.
It would be great to have someone i mean the world to
I'm not talking from "love" love, i mean "friendship"-love...
Maybe that's why i'm so needy for love and always tkae the first best i can get...
Am i such a loser? A buzzkiller? A depressed piece of sh*t?
YOU ARE READING
Thoughts, thoughts go away - come again another day
Aléatoire*internally screaming*
