This is an edited version from the one I posted on Quotev.
I wrote this piece when I was going through a tuff time in my life. I hope it speaks to you guys. <3
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I found God on the corner of 1st and Amistad
Where the West was all but won
All alone, smoking his last cigaretteI
said, "Where you been?" He said, "Ask anything
"Maybe if you weren't so stupid I would treat you better."
Maybe if you actually paid attention to me.
Maybe if you had stopped working, and spent time with me.
Now there are no more maybe's, the past is the past.
You built it the way that it is and now look where we ended up.
"What did I ever do to deserve you in my life? "
The words cut into me deeper than they ever had before.
My heart feels like it's been ripped into a million pieces.
"Hey, idiot I'm talking to you!"
I start to shake. Blinding rage takes over my body and nothing can be done but sit there and spill my tears.
I run down the stairs, run into my room and lock myself in my dark closet.
Angry tears run down my face and I can do nothing but curl in on myself.
Soon the saddness dissipates into anger.
I shove my hand underneath my drawer and feel around for a little silver box with an elephant on it.
I take out a blade. Cold and small and the sight brings back old memories.
I slide the blade against my skin and just stare.
My skin is ripped and blood is running down my arm.
The anger slowly dissipates. There is nothing left but yearning,
I can not hurt you. I don't ever want to hurt you.
So instead I hurt myself.
Lost and insecure.
You found me, you found me. Lying on the floor.
Where were you, where were youω?
Just a little late
You found me.
For all the people here who feel as if they have no one, keep believing in yourself. You are a beautiful person and don't EVER let anyone take that away from you.
This is dedicated to my old friend. A boy who is currently not alive because of bullying.
I love you Treyson. <3
