PHIR SE

Completeness

Chapter 30
Completeness

Thank you KoeliDalmiya for helping me with this.
This part is in Arnav’s point of view.

I drove my car fast while rage drove me mad. I stopped the car and mentally screamed. My fists were clenched. Why did Khushi hide this from me, hide our child from me? For her freedom? From when did she become so selfish?

I remembered the first time I and Khushi had made love, our wedding night.

Yes, according to me I didn’t love her but from for my heart...that night was the most beautiful night of my whole life. It was after so many years that I had slept peacefully, that was in her arms.
This wasn't a part of my plan. This happened involuntarily as my brain couldn't control my affections towards her.

Well, it worked well with my plan as I needed to ensure that I possessed her trust and heart before I broke it. But that had broken me as well that I was using her innocence for my selfish motive.

I remember that night quite well :

Khushi went away to our room after I consoled her when Indrani had slapped her for marrying me.
I was lone with my thoughts. Every girl has some kind of dreams regarding their wedding night. I am sure even she must have had  one given the hopeless romantic she is. But the circumstances we got married, her dreams must have shattered. I felt pitiful about her.

It has been more than 2 hours that I was out of the mansion driving aimlessly. I somehow was a little sceptical about the current scenario of the house and my life. Whether what I did was right or wrong, I was still thinking about it.

Finally I parked my car in the garage and headed up in my room. I ignored Indrani who was  present in the hall and went straight up to meet my bride. I had few things to discuss with her.

I had expected her to be in my room crying on the bed when I come back but she wasn’t there. The bed was empty so was the room. Where is she? I entered and checked the washroom thinking she must be there. But she wasn’t.  I slid open the door  leading to the garden and found her sitting beside the pond looking at the water. Her eyes fell on me when I approached her.

“Arnav ?”

“Why are you sitting here, Khushi?” I asked joining her.

“I felt good here. I was feeling suffocated in the room.”

“Did you eat?”

“I am not hungry.”

“Not even if I feed you with my own hands or take you out  for a dinner”.

She leaned on my shoulder and kept on staring the pond.
“ Arnav, I don’t know! I am feeling so guilty for the first time. I have back answered maa , she must be feeling so bad. But why doesn’t she understand how good you are? If only you would let me tell her who you actually are... I feel Ma would be happy then.”

“Khushi forget this all , time shall heal all wounds. Indrani aunty shall have to accept us as it is.Please don't disclose anything to her at this moment. I shall do it on my own when the right time comes. Leave that! We need to celebrate our marriage today. Stop acting all crazy and mad about this tiny matter!" I smiled to her.
“ Arnav, are you going to force yourself on me if I tell you that I am not ready for our first night?”

I somehow knew this was coming. So she was nervous. And she was bound to be. This was going to be her first night.

No matter what I would never force her to make love to me without her wish. Icould never harm her. My heart would never agree to.