She is Mine, I am Hers {Chandara Fanfic}

Chapter 5 ~ I Can Do This =)

James' POV

"No i am sorry. I am sorry for actually thinking that we could be happy every single time after you abuse or hurt me. I am really sorry because i did not end our relationship earlier. Things have gone bad James. All your sorry does not mean anything to me anymore. I love you too..... But not anymore. You may see me as a heartless person now but i don't care. I want you to know what you're doing is wrong. I want a normal relationship James. A relationship where we can love each other, have fun, have silly fights and make up with each other with kisses and hugs. But unfortunately you cannnot give it to me. So i am sorry. Let's end this." 

Those words coming out from her beautiful mouth echoed in my mind again. I'm in the dorm again, all alone this time. No Baekhyun. No one to listen to me. Or at least tell me what to do. 

I was thinking about the best moments that i had with Alexa when i heard the front door of the dorm opened and shut. There came in Baekhyun. Just who i needed. He smiled at me before looking at my face.

"James ! Why are you crying ! What happened ?" Baekhyun rushed to me and shook my shoulder.

"I.. I broke up with Alexa..." My tears once again betrayed me.

"What ? Why ?"

"It's a long story........." I don't really want to tell him the truth. I sighed.

"I've got time. Tell me everything! We are bestfriends for a reason you know.."

"Fine fine... So...."

I told him everything. Every single thing. from when i abused and hurt Alexa till our break up.

"What the hell James ? Seriously ! Wow you're a fucking jerk !" He told me angrily.

"Yeah i know ! I know ! I couldn't control myself ! I cannot help it ! I love her so much and i don't want to lose her !" I replied while putting my head in between my hands. 

"But that's not the damn way ! You hurt Alexa Noona ! She freaking loved you James. You just had to made her lose it, don't you ? And guess what. I thought she was the reason why you became like this! I didn't know she was actually the one who suffered in your arms James. Wow James , just wow !"

"Yes i know ! I know it all ! I don't know man, i miss her already. I want her back ! I love her so much and i cannot imagine life without her !"

"Well you started it. The best you could do is leave her alone for now. She must be really scared of you James. I cannot even imagine you doing the things like how you told me you did. Of course you scare her away. If you want her back, i guess you have to learn the hard way. Control yourself. Don't be obsessive and abusive. Listen first then react. Violence won't make anything work. It will just complicate things. No doubt, violence scares everybody away. The pain she felt. Don't you pity her at all ? All she wants is for you to treasure her like how she did treasure you. Think about it. I'm leaving you but it doesn't mean i let you go. You have alot of thinking to do. If you don't change, i'm going to tell the boys. And remember, i may forgive you. But not them. We all love Alexa Noona. She has been very nice to all of us. So please James." Baekhyun looked at me and pat my back before going to his room.

"Arasso. I will try my best. I can do this. I will change. For the sake of Alexa noona. I am willing to do anything. I have hurt her enough. She doesn't deserve any hurtful actions or words from me anymore. It's best to leave her alone for now. She needs time and so do i to make changes with my obviously f*cked up self." I sat back and shut my eyes.

"I miss you already baby, I will win you back.." I said to myself, motivating myself.

Alexa's POV

"He fucking what ?" Chae asked me with seriousness.

"What what ? He did that to you ?" Bommie asked me full of curiousity.

"Unnie he's crazy !" Minzy jumped off her seat.

"Girls.. Relax. Yep he did that. But it was my fault anyway. My body betrayed me every single time. In addition, i can't bring myself to end things sooner..." I sighed. 

"Son of a bitch. I will fucking kill him myself. Nobody touches my unnie like that !" Chae was clearly pissed.

"I know right ! And he's filming Roommate with me ! I will make him die in his sleep ! No you don't mess with Bommie bitches." Bommie gave a smirk.

"Haven't he seen my strength on running man yet ? Haha ! That dumb guy. My strength can make him paralysed ! I already promise to beat any guy who hurts you when we were filming 2NE1tv and we were on Ugly's set Unnie !" Minzy gave me a smile and hugged me. 

"Girls you all are overreacting ! I'm fine ! We are over now. So i am free now. Next time if there is anything.. I will make sure to tell you guys everything on the spot !" I hugged all three of them. What would i do without them..

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