She is Mine, I am Hers {Chandara Fanfic}

Chapter 3 ~ Tired

Alexa's POV:

"James.. Don't !"I screamed out of my lungs. I was awaked by the worst nightmare ever. The nightmare consists James hurting me, claiming that I was lying to him when I have no idea what's he is talking about.

"It's nothing Alexa.. It's nothing. He's not here." I managed to calm myself down. Unfortunately, my mind lingered about what happened 2 weeks ago. 

~~FLASHBACK~~

=James Apartment=

"Noona, don't you think we should reveal our relationship ? That's what I want to do. To be honest." James gave me his smile.

"I don't know, I think it's not a good idea to reveal our relationship to the public. I mean ~~~" James cuts my words.

" What do you mean ? You don't want the people to know about that we're are on a relationship ? Why ? Don't you love me ? 

"No, that's not what I meant babe. I mean.. It wouldn't be so good for you and me right ? The fans that supports you, they might hate you because you're on a relationship with me. I don't think they will like if you ended up revealing our relationship. And of course, I love you James, for all of my life ! You're my life ! But you know we cannot do whatever we want right ?" 

"I don't get it, why are you concerned about the fans ? They're not important to me because I have you. You're the most important girl in my whole life. And most they will hate it but whatever it is, at the end of the day the person who will end up with you is me. Only ME ! WAIT ! Or actually you are scared if Jiyong might not like it ? Aren't you ?

"They all love you James. It's your career that were talking about. I don't want to be selfish. Please have fun for now. You and I promise our relationship stay just like from the start. And why are you involving Jiyong in our conversation. You know he's not what I'm talking about (=_=)  ? He's mm ~~

"Fans fans fans ? Haha you're funny babe. Impressive..... You're even protecting that fucker now.." He forced a laugh again.

"I am for real James. Those fans of yours love you alot and i don't want you to lose them just because you reveal your relationship with me.. My fans are also important.. I am 30 years old now James... I don't have much time before i have to eventually retire from this industry.. And you my baby, is still young.. You don't wanna destroy your well built career just like that right ? The boys will be upset babe.. And no, I am not protecting Jiyong at all.. I am just really saying what's in my heart." I looked at him sincerely. I saw him clenched his fists. 

"Stop lying to me ! Am i not good enough ?" James went on to grab a fistful of my hair.

"Owww ! It hurts ! James stop it ! You promised me you won't do this anymore. Can't you see ? I am just concerned about your career ! I want the best for you !  So please. I love you so much and you're the only one who i think of ! Please. Just trust me." I pleaded. Tears started flowing down from my eyes. I cannot do this anymore. Where did his damn promise went to ? Did it vanished just like that ?

His grip on my hair only tightened even more. I swear i saw his hand moving towards my cheek when thank God my phone rang. James grabbed my phone and he showed me the caller.

Sajangnim ! Papa YG ! You saved me !!

"Shhh." He cooed me and let me hold my phone and let go of my hair. I sucked my tears in and cleared my throat before picking up the call.

"Annyeonghaseyo. Neh. Arasso Sajangnim. I will be right there."

I hung up and threw my phone into my bag which i have already grabbed in a speed of light. 

"I gotta go. Sajangnim wants me and the girls to be in the meeting room. We have something to discuss about... About the tour." I told James . 

"You were saved this time babe. Don't be out late. I love you." Those were his last words before he kissed my forehead.

"I love.... you.. too." I hesitated saying those words. I felt so shitty. I headed for the door before wiping my tears off and brushing my hair that was messed up by that beast. 

"I hate you James. I really do."

=END OF FLASHBACK=

It has been about two weeks since i last saw him. I always made up excuses to not meet him. I even slept over at Chaerin's apartment for a few times claiming that i was feeling lonely and would love to have her as accompany. As an understanding bestfriend, Chae did not asked me at all. She even said she loved having me with her. I also changed the code number to my house. James texted me asking why i changed the code and i claimed i was not feeling very safe. He started overreacting but i did not bother to explain any further. I could not bring myself to tell Chae, Bom or Minzy what James had done to me. I was afraid. Afraid of everything. What would happen to him if i do so ? It would be lying if i said i don't miss him but really, the current James wasn't who i love.

I was woken up the alarm and decided to chil, by watching the tv. I was engrossed in a cooking show when my phone beeped. 

From: Baekhyun

"Hello Noona ! Baekhyun here ! I was wondering if you had a fight with James ? I am really sorry for being a busybody but i don't think James is in his best condition. He looks bad actually. You might wanna meet him and talk things out ? :)"

To: Baekhyun

"Hello Baekhyun.. No i didn't had a fight with him... I was really busy this few weeks... Uhmm tell him i will meet him at our usual place at 7pm ?"

My phone beeped again.

"Neh Noona. I will let him know !"

I read the message and started thinking on what i have done.

"No more running away from him ! I can do this !! Hwaiting !~~" I encouraged myself while  sitting on the sofa.

I honestly wanted to make things clear with him.. I cannot take it anymore. I wanted to end things with him. He has been really weird recently. I love him. The old him. Not the current him. It's a heartbreaking decision i must admit. But i don't want to hurt him and myself anymore. As much as i want him for myself, i need him to understand me. Unfortunately... I don't see it in him. It sucks to feel this. It sucks to remember how sweet James was. I was really serious when i said i did not want our relationship to be revealed. I did not want our career to be destroyed. I don't want to be abused anymore. I am very tired. Tired when everytime he assumes, i get the shit. I loved James with all my heart. But i think it's time to move on.

A/N: Updated Againnn ! What do you think guys ? Please Vote. Thank youuu. =))