so once upon a time ago (like 2 or 3 weeks ago), i said that i felt like crap because i couldn't make everyone happy at the same time and for some reason, i thought i wasn't good enough for anyone.
instead of yelling or calling me 'dumb' or 'childish', which is what i lowkey expected to get at that point, you let me cry and have my moment of weakness before hitting me with logic: i needed to make myself happy.
see, as you of all people know, i am a tremendously selfless person. and it will most likely be the death of me, but you don't want that happen. i think everyone agrees with you on that. but I can't help it: it SUCKS trying to be wonder woman all the time, believe me. but you're right, i can't spend my time trying to make everyone else happy. i need time to be happy, and mad, and annoyed, and sad, and excited, and all those emotions I've pushed away. i made an art out of being emotionless because i never really wanted people to see me vulnerable.
but you have and you still choose to put up with me and my shit so i guess im improving? i dunno- but i do know that when I can't think straight and my mind is swirling, you keep me grounded.
and that's all i want from you, nothing more, nothing less..
