Mocking bird {H.S}

F O U R

My life has finally come to that stage I've always wanted to be on, the stage where I'm independent, where I'm not afraid, where I'm not anxious, where I have people who make me feel better, and now that I'm living it I'm dreading it would end.
                      I wasn't the nerdy girl who was cautious about her weight and looks, who only knew and hung out with that one dude she's known since kindergarten, who spoke only if spoken to still, silently. I am different now, I've made friends, I'm living alone well theocraticaly and I'm independent. Alec was right I did grow up, the storm did pass, I have moved on. And if you told my 15 year old self that in six years I'd be having a decent conversation and spending time walking around with a devilishly handsome boy, like I am right now. I would love to say I would've rolled on the floor laughing, but no, I would've just smiled and walked away but for me at that time it was exact same thing.

"Interesting isn't it." Harry asked. As we walked around the place just talking about anything and everything. We've become so incredibly close the past four days it seems as if I've known these people for ages.
"What?" I asked.
"Lou and Eli's story." he slowly said.
"Yeah it's amazing. Did Louis tell you?" I asked.
"Yeah, and I assume Eli told you."
"It's amazing you know, their love for each other, Louis feelings for Eli." he said.
"Yeah, but isn't that so unboyish." I asked.
"Umm unboyish what?" he quirked an eyebrow. Wow his accent is so thick.
" Talking about feelings, boys, you don't do that right? "
"And what we only talk about girls, boobs and arses."
"I was gonna say video games and cars but that seems more likely."
"Nooooo we do talk about football and video games. Boobs and arses noo. Well sometimes." he said smiling and I smiled back.
"See." I said.
"But we do talk about feeling sometimes too, not always but, sometimes."
"Oh okay." I said smiling at the ground.
"Do you seriously think boy's don't have feelings?"
"Well yeah you hardly ever shed a tear, you all show your toughness even though some of you are very soft. And boys are ass holes most of the time."
"Woah you've had some very fucked up relationships haven't you. Trust me I relate."
"Yeah." I sighed.
"Crying is very manly by the way." he said with a wink and I laughed as he laughed with me.

We got into the cafe, me and Eli came to the other day and sat down still with huge smiles plastered on our faces.
"And she told me that it was too cold outside and told me to leave, basically shutting the door at my face. And it started to rain so I had to run back home leaving all the candles and roses  behind." he finished his story about how he had planned a perfect night with his girlfriend when he was 14. With candles and rose petals outside the girl's house and she had refused to come outside, what a bitch.
"Ohhhhhh that should've been awful."
I said laughing.

"It most definitely was." he said shaking his head with a smirk.
"So..... for once your charm actually lost eh?" I asked looking at him and he smirked wider and I didn't think it could even be possible.
"You think I'm charming." he asked and my cheeks started heating up.
"Uhhh yeah I ugh umm yeah." I said looking for words.
"And I think you're beautiful so, win win." he said looking at me with that haunting smirk still plastered on his face as my cheeks felt like they were on fire.

 We just stared at each other for what felt like ages but was just a few seconds and to shake us off our staring competition my phone buzzed loudly on the table and I looked away from him as he cleared his throat awkwardly. I thanked god, who ever was calling, cause if I had stared at him a tad bit more I'm sure I would've drowned in his emerald green irises and vanished into oblivion.

Alec's name flashed on the screen. I wrinkled my nose, I knew this was coming. I haven't called him in two days. I have a lot of apologising to do. Cause our deal was one call every day, and constant visits during the weekend. It's nice to have someone so hard to leave behind, so hard to forget and to know that he feels the same for me just brightens up the day. We are like two long lost siblings who fate bought back together.
"Can I?" I asked Harry who was now facing me.
"Sure." he said looking out the window.