Hug Me, Hold Me, Love Me | Junhwan

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For the next few days, Junhoe is just behaving normally but maybe it's because Jinhwan finally knew Junhoe's feelings for him, he started to notice those little small things Junhoe would do for him. Like ask him to roll his sleeves up a bit so it wouldn't get dirty when he takes the food, minding him that the stairs are wet so that he won't fall, preparing his coffee before he could kill anyone in the morning... All these little things that Junhoe always does for him, how can he not realize it?

Jinhwan felt that he's getting softer for Junhoe and falling hard for him day by day.

This day, they are having a concert. When they sing their song, WYD, Junhoe looked at Jinhwan with his soft eyes. And as if he's testing the water, he gently poked Jinhwan's arm to get his attention.

"Jinani, what you doing? Can I have a hug?" Junhoe somehow manage to fit this in during his part and asked Jinhwan. Upon hearing that, the fans started screaming and Jinhwan's ears turned pink.

Wanting to look normal, Jinhwan mumbled a yes and hugged Junhoe. Junhoe smirks a bit and pulled Jinhwan even closer, their lips almost touching, the fans were screaming so loud but all Jinhwan can hear is his heart beat that's beating so fast and Junhoe's "See hyung, they're fine with this".

The song gives off a pink atmosphere so Junhoe took the chance to intertwine his fingers with Jinhwan's and walked around, showing Jinhwan that the fans are okay with this. (We're more than okay actually but nevermind that) Jinhwan's heart is beating so fast he might faint if Junhoe decided to do something even extreme but luckily he did not.

After the concert, both of them had a time alone in an empty artist room while the other members are elsewhere.

"See Jinani, they're fine. Did you heard their screams? They'll accept us, hyung" Junhoe gently held Jinhwan's hands and said.

"No, Junhoe, they just think all of these as fan service, nothing more than some brotherhood in their eyes. If there's news about us dating, they will think different, at least some of them will. I can't risk this, it's not just us Junhoe, it's iKON" All of them worked so damn hard for what they had today, he can't lose all of these just for his own happiness with Junhoe.

Junhoe knows Jinhwan's concern, he too did thought about it, for years. Yes, it is terrifying, the risk is high but if no one makes a move they'll just stay like that forever. Loving each other so damn hard and yet too scared to be together and the result? Them hurting themselves, mentally.

After that, Junhoe never mentioned about it anymore, their lives goes on as usual, practising hard everyday. Well, sometimes Junhoe will hug Jinhwan in front of the members and even say some cringe stuff that makes Jinhwan blush and wanna puke so bad but the members seem alright with that. And to Jinhwan's surprise, they even leave them alone.

This day, Junhoe is hugging Jinhwan while watching a romance movie, both of them are laying on the sofa. Junhoe had a bowl of popcorn that he stole from Yunhyeong and he would feed Jinhwan. Jinhwan is kinda immune to all these stuff after all its comfortable having someone hugging you and feeding you at the same time.

"Urgh you two, go to your room and do these stuff can't you? The others wanna be here as well" Hanbin walked out from his room and saw them and frowned. The other members are so done with them dancing around each other since the WIN era, sometimes they just wanna push them together and make them kiss.

"Why don't you join us then? There's plenty space on the floor" Jinhwan replied.

"And see you guys being all lovely dovey? No thanks I rather stay in my own room like the other single guys"

"We... We're not dating..." Jinhwan blushes.

"I didn't say you guys were, you two look more like a married couple anyways" Hanbin got his cup of water and left before Jinhwan could say anything.

"H-Hey! I said-" Jinhwan flinched slightly at Hanbin's statement and before he could finish his sentence, Junhoe's lips are on his.

"Hyung, you're so noisy" Junhoe said after kissing Jinhwan.

"W-what" Jinhwan was dumbfounded. The kiss was too sudden and too damn short for his liking. "Ah I don't care anymore what stupid media stupid people outside stupid homophobic people I don't fucking care" he thought as he cupped his hands on Junhoe's now burning cheek.

"What the actual fuck did I just do he's probably gonna hate me great Koo Junhoe, great move, awesome, he's gonna slap you in the face-" Junhoe is mentally scolding himself and got really surprised when Jinhwan cupped his hands on his cheeks and next moment, Jinhwan is kissing him, for real.

The kiss was soft, no wait, Jinhwan's lips was soft and Junhoe could taste some popcorn, its kinda funny but he's melting into the kiss. After dreaming this for years, he finally get to kiss Jinhwan, no, Jinhwan finally kissed him, he can die happily now.

After kissing for like a century, they parted and breathed hard, sucking in the oxygen into their lungs. Everything feels like a dream, too good to be true. They stared at each other.

"Did you use nivea lipbalm? Cause damn your lips are so soft and kissable" Jinhwan snorted at this and Junhoe wanna slap himself so hard.

Jinhwan snuggled closer to Junhoe and once again closing the gap between their lips. This is the best kiss Junhoe ever had, okay just now was his first real kiss so yeah he wouldn't mind kissing only Jinhwan for the rest  of his life.

Junhoe then remembered what the romance drama usually does, he gently bit Jinhwan's lower lips and when Jinhwan parted a bit of his lips, Junhoe darted his tongue in. Their tongues swirled around each other, exploring each other's mouth, all they could think was each other and nothing more.

And then...

"OH MY GOD JUN- UH JINH ARGH JUNHWAN!!!"

Rest in peace, Hanbinnie's eyes.