it's heavy
oh, the guilt is heavy
it's my fault,
oh, it's always my fault.
they don't do it wrong,
how can they?
their justifications are valid,
but mine are not.
my explanation is not required,
i'm the one at fault and that's that.
yes, it's my fault,
that i feel when i shouldn't,
i don't feel when i need to.
i'm toxic.
i'm the negativity.
and it's my fault that
i am not normal,
i am not sane like you all.
(but still it's just a phase)
i know, i know, i fucking know
that it's my fucking fault!
i don't need you to tell me that
my consciousness does it just right, right every fucking day!
can't just once; only once,
someone say it's not my fault?
that i did well?
that i've made progress,
and that it's not my fault?
i think not.
it's my fault,
oh, it's my fault.
and i accept it.
it's definitely my fault that,
i exist.
