Jayys POV
Another amazing concert I love all the fans but the thing I love the most is when I get to kiss dahvie he's just so amazing I can't explain yeah me and dahvs have a friends with benefits relationship with no string attached but I can't help it I'm falling in love with him.
"Jayyyy" dahvie purred in my ear
"whats up dahvs"
"I'm bored wanna head to the back"
"I'd love to dahvs I'm just not in the mood"
"fine wanna watch a movie and cuddle" holy shit that's weird every time dahvs wants sex he always argues until I give in if I say no, its strange but I dont care I love spending time with him.
"yeah sure come on"
we decided to watch the purge I don't know why I like that movie but I do dahvie paused the movie half way through to talk to me.
"jayy"
"yes dahvie what's up"
"promise me if anything like this ever happens you won't kill me"
"dahvie why the fuck would I wanna kill you"
"you know to clense yourself because I'm a disgrace and ugly and.."
"dahvie I swear if you don't shut the fuck up I'll kill you now what's got into you why are you pulling yourself down"
"because you'll never love me you just want me for sex and that's all and jayy I love you"
"what the hell you love me" I asked shocked. this is amazing he like me back.
Dahvie got up and ran, Shit that came out wrong it wasn't supposed to sound like that I sounded like I was gonna laugh at him or say something horrid shitt I heard his door slam shut I followed and knocked on the door.
"dahvie come out please we need to talk"
"jayy I don't care I fucking hate you I only wanted to see what you thought thick shit" oh he doesn't love me I started crying and grabbed my phone and rang jeffree.
J-jayy
Js- Jeffrey
Phone call
Js- Bitch what you want.
J- I wanna meet up.
Js- sure thing come round.
J- kay I'll be round in two.
Js- byeee
and with that I hung up and grabbed my keys and left for jeffree's.
Dahvie's POV
what the fuck is wrong with me why the hell did I just tell jayy I love him I have ruined everything when he said "what the hell you love me" in a bitter voice broke my heart I just got up and ran to my room a few minutes later jayy came up and wanted to talk to me but I didn't want to hear it so I told him that I didn't mean it, seriously why the hell did I say this "jayy I don't care I fucking hate you I only wanted to see what you thought thick shit" I can't believe I told him I hated him and that he was a thick shit its me that's the thick shit ugh I hate my life
(warning self harm)
I looked to my left and saw my reflection in the mirror and I lost it I started looking at it and calling my self names like your fat, waste of space, no one likes you, Ugly, Worthless, disgrace so I punched my mirror and the glass fell on the floor I picked it up and started slicing my wrists pushing it deeper and deeper each time until the blood was flowing out nicely I thought it was about time I left this world no one would miss me to jayy I was just someone he fucked and didn't give a shit about so I walked in to the bathroom and ran the cold water tap until the bath was full then I took my sleeping pills out of the cabinet and slipped the whole bottle into my mouth and swallowed them down with water then I made a few more cuts and I started to feel faint so I quickly wrote a note to jayy.
Dear Jayy
I'm sorry it came to this I just couldn't cope anymore I had fallen in love with you, you were my world I would have given anything to have you as my own but its too late I told you I loved you and you looked disgusted then you said what the hell you love me in a bitter voice so I decide today was the day I love you jayy good bye my love I will always love you.
with that the sleep was really taking over and I stepped in to the cold bath water and let the darkness take over me.
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i know its short but they will get longer i promise.
sorry about the first chappy being depressing its just my mood at the moment.
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Fiksi Penggemarjayy and dahvie have been in a band called blood on the dance floor for a few years now they were what you call fuck buddies but what happens when feeling start. But both are scared to tell each other and jayy trys to ignore his feelings for dahvie...
