Alara

Friday - October 12th

My life is so godamn boring. There are exactly two more days until Im back to school and starting year 12. Back to school incidently marks the death of my social life for the next year. So really I should've been enjoying the past two weeks, going out with friends, sleeping in and pretty much relaxing. But instead I've been working my ass off.

Maths every 2nd day which leaves a fuck load of homework for all the days inbetween tutoring and working practically everyday at McDonald's. Lets just say it hasnt exactly been the holiday Id hoped for. Lets recap: maths on Sunday, Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday mornings and working every night. So yeah I guess you could say Im living the life. Like honestly if I have to stare at one more complex number my head might explode.

After this holidays ends year 12 starts which quite frankly I dont even feel like thinking about. I want to do law or physiotherapy - which basically means I need a minimum 98 atar and I need to get my shit together this year.

Ughh, its the holidays and Im already staying up till 12 to finish maths homework in preparation for year 12. Just wait till the shit really starts rolling.

All I wanted this holidays was to go to the beach, eat good food, catch up with all of my friends from my old school and go to ikea. Did I get any of that shit done? Nope. Because I have no fucken life.

My social life and love life are honesty a joke at the moment. I have lots of friends but no time. Sadly those two things really do go together. I have done such a shitty job at staying friends with the girls from my old school and I really wish I could go out with them more often but honestly I don't have the time. Im already seriously sleep deprived. I just dont have the time.

Sleeping of sleep deprivation. I think my body is trying to tell me something. I have an eyelid twitch (which is annoying as fuck) which Ive had for about a month now which is apparently cause by fatigue. I also have the worlds worst eyebags and circles like its not even funny. You can see them from outer space. I walk around looking ike a zombie even when I've attempted to  cover them with concealer. Does this mean Im gonna start sleeping a decent amount? Probably not. I mean its 12:30 at the moment so I guess I really should go to sleep.

So thanks for listening to my ramble i guess.