Sorry it took so long..
~♡~
Days, even weeks had passed and you still ignored both of them, it just hurt to much. The thing is, you had experienced the fact of not being good enough way too many times and at some point it was just too much. Always being picked as second choice. Your friend always being first.
You felt empty inside, like there was something missing.
Emilio.
He was like a drug to you. If you saw him a lot, your happiness would increase, if you didn't see him your happiness would vanish.
No matter how hard you tried you just couldn't get over him.
He's not worth it.
He doesn't love you.
Life goes on.
He doesn't feel the same.
Just forget about him.
You would tell yourself, but nothing seemed to help.
After a month or two you finally decided that it was time to get back out there. Maybe meeting someone who would help you get over Emilio.
Of course that didn't mean you'd go look for a 'rebound one-night-stand' or something like that. You wouldn't just go and use someone for your own good, that wasn't who you are.
So you looked at yourself in the mirror, frowning at your appearance. Dark bags under your eyes, greasy hair, pyjamas you had been wearing for a week and a half.
Yeah. You definatly needed to change something.
It was for the best.
...
After you showerd and did everything possible to clean yourself up you took your car keys and drove to a popular pub, knowing you could probably find someone to talk to.
You got out of the car and smoothed down your baby blue dress. Taking a deep breath you took all of your strengh to push your self-consciousness to the back.
You can do this! Quit being a shy pussy. You told yourself before you walked into the pub.
It was quite dark in the pub, people sat in their little groups in some booths of the bar, just hanging out with their friends, you assumed.
You walked up to sit at the bar, maybe someone would come and approach you, you thought.
It didn't take long for the bartender to notice you, after all, even if you didn't find your self that pretty, truth was you were actually very beautiful, some might even say you were hot.
He smiled at you, what you wanted to drink and you couldn't help but blush at the fact that he was obviously flirting with you.
...
Minutes past in which you kept flirting with Matt, the bartender, and all in one had a great time, that was until someone sat down next to you.
You glanced up hesitantly and noticed that the one boy you had tried to desperatly ignore sat next to you.
Maybe if I ignore him and keep talking to Matt he won't notice me. You tried to tell youself, just ignore him.
"So Y/n, are you here alone" Matt smirked at you, making you blush.
"No!" Emilio barked as you were about to answer him.
You turned to Emilio, surprised about his sudden outburst. His jaw and fists were clenched as he send Matt an icy glare.
"What?" Matt asked stunned.
"She's here with me, so fuck off!" Emilio gritted his teeth while you just became more confused by the second.
"Emilio I-" you started but got cut off by him suddenly standing up and grabing your wrist.
He pulled you outside with him and let go of your wrist when you stood under one of the street lights in front of the pub.
"Emilio what's going on?" You asked, confused as hell.
He exhaled deeply before answering calmly, "What were you doing in there?"
"Why do you care?"
"Because I care about you"
"No you don't" you said, feeling hurt because of all the memories that seemed to come up all again.
"That's not true" he said looking at you with a serious expression.
"I was just trying to have fun, meet knew people, so if you'll excuse me I am gonna resume to doing exactly that"
"No you not" Emilio said determined and grabed your wrist.
"Why?" You asked curiously.
"Because I don't like the way he looks at you and,.. I- I-" he started stuttering.
"You what Emilio?"
"I like you okay?!" He snapped, taking you by surprise.
"That makes no sense at all Emilio, just a month ago you clearly told me you didn't like me so cut the crap and leve me alone." You started calmly but you couldn't the anger that rose inside you.
You tried turning around but he stopped you again, pulling you close to his chest. You locked eyes with him and just then noticed how much you had missed those ocean blue eyes.
To your surprise they weren't filled with happiness though, they were filled with frustratiion and something you couldn't quite identify.
"That was the biggest mistake I have ever made, I am so sorry. I never meant to hurt you and, god I've missed you so much this past month. It was like a part of me was missing. Please forgive me! I really like you."
"But- but I thought you liked Y/bff/n" you said utterly confused.
"No, no I don't. It's you, it has always been you and I can't even describe how sorry I am for not understanding earlier."
"I am so confused" you spoke your thoughts.
"Let me make it easier" Emilio smiled and that's when his lips met yours for the first time.
~♡~
