I Love Yoo

Prologue.

Is it true?

Experience life through the eyes of a child and then we will be able to see the magic and wonder the world has to offer?
But...
I don't remember seeing anything magical when I was a child.
That's where it all began.
The pain...
She walked away with my sister without explanation.
Did I do something wrong?
My father swore that we would be together forever but... in the end, he couldn't do anything. That was the only time I had seen him so powerless. He insisted that it wasn't but I couldn't help but to wonder.
Was I a bad kid...
Was it my fault that they left?
"We'll be happy again" my father told me... "Be strong".
So I started telling myself. Everything is going to be okay. I'm going to be happy again.
But... why is everyone being so cold to me? Please, just tell me why. What have I done wrong to be treated like this?
I wanted to make friends, but they all pushed me away. What went wrong? Why won't anybody tell me?
They tell me to go away. That nobody wants me here. Not here. Not anywhere.
Stay Strong.
I tell myself, as they call me horrible names. Don't let them weaken you with their words. "Stay Strong".
Even when they judge you. Stay Strong.
I just tell myself as their backs face towards me. "Stay Strong" as they walk from me. How long can I keep this up? It's getting harder to hide the pain. It feels like I'm suffocating. I don't care about happiness anymore. I just want to feel okay again.

"Okay" is all I need.

( POV Shin-Ae )

"Beef flavor"
I stand there in the aisle holding the bag of beef flavor chips. Will father like this
flavor?

-Omg, really?

-Not even kidding!

-Ahaha that's hilarious!

-I know right??

Suddenly the conversation stoped and I knew they had saw me. Well sh*t, what better way to start the day right?

-Wow. Didn't think I would see you here...
-I turned their way and recognized the two girls from my high school. I signed and stood right where I was before, waiting for the inevitable.

-Oh my God. Just look at the way she is dressed. Where do you even get your clothes?

-Probably the same place you go to get clothes for dogs.

-Don't you mean pigs?- they laughed while i just stood there, looking at them. The other girl agreed with her while they laughed.

-Do you think she is going to break down?  I heard that's what happened in the past.- they talked while they came closer to me.

-I you she will. Such a loser.- I put my beef flavor in the basket and turned in their direction. They just stayed silent while I passed through them going to the payment aisle.

As I left the store i realized I had forgotten my umbrella so I just started walking home anyway.

I've been taking hits from life as long as I can remember, and I'm totally fine with it.
I'll just keep on moving forward for as long as I can, and maybe one day...
Just maybe...

I'll be okay once more.