Depression...

How this all started, basically

When I was in 8th grade, I was with a very bad group of people. They smoked, did drugs, bragged about losing their virginities, stuff like that. I was a relatively good kid at the time. I had decent grades, I didn't skip school, and I was nice to everyone. But all that changed between September-October 2015. One of the kids got me into cutting because she was into it. Sometimes, we would lend each other razor blades if the other person ran out of clean ones or lost them. My arms, legs, and belly were covered in cuts. My parents eventually found out and sent me to see a psychologist, were I was diagnosed with depression and an anxiety disorder. She was really nice, but she couldn't fix my problems. They only got worse....

On October 8, 2015, I skipped school for the first time to go get high with a couple of my guy friends. This only resulted in me coming back to school, high as a motherfucker. I eventually got sent to the nurse, who called my mom so she could take me home. She was pissed off at me, so I was grounded for a month. Fair enough. But the very next day was a Friday, so that meant people were gonna go out and party that night. My friend (let's call her Jessica) wanted me to come to a really cool party that she was hosting with a bunch of her friends. Of course, I said yes. And that party changed my life because it was the night that I had lost my virginity (I'm not gonna say who cause those details don't matter right now and they won't benefit the story).

The Monday that we came back to school, the person I had sex with started taunting me and calling me names like "fat, ugly, stupid", stuff like that. And something clicked inside of me. I began to think that the things he was saying were true. So that's when I started eating less. Between October-December 2015, I went from 5'5" and 120 lbs to 5'5" and 99 lbs. I had lost a total of 21 lbs in a little over 2 months. My parents started knowing how bad my eating habits were, and how horrible of a place I was in at the time, that I was hospitalized between December 23rd, 2015 and January 3rd, 2016. It didn't benefit me at all.