between two hearts

Chapter 7

"Im gonna SMILE like everythings is fine,im gonna ACT like nothings happend,im gonna PRETEND that i'am strong even thought deep inside im hurt"

-jennie kim
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1 week later
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Jennie's pov

Finally im gonna get discharged...
Its so boring here in the hospital,Alone......

Its to boring...without my friends........
Without my love ones...............................
......,....taehyung..........,,,,,..........

...........now i know the truth.......that he really never loved me back......when we were dating.......he just used me....to move on to irene.....do u know what hurts the most........i was hoping that he loved me....even though he's attitude is cold towards me..........but i guessed wrong.........he still loved irene......

I wanted to hurt him like how he hurts me........i want him to suffer like how i suffered because of him........but i cant....because i loved him more than myself.......i cant live withouth him.......i can manage to hurt or kill myself because i love him more than myself....i almost kill myself because him.....but why,why i still loved him.....even though he hurts me into pieces.........

I wanted to cry hard.......i want my pain go away.....but i canoot
Jimin started courting me last week......he very happy i can see it............
Even though he is courting....why i still loved taehyung........i cant moved on....but still i have to....i have to learn to love jimin or else i will hurt his feelings......

"Unnie...."
"Eonnie??"

"Unnie?!" Lisa called me making me back to reality
"H-huh??"

"Unnie ur spacing out....."rose said in a serious tone
"Are u okay???" Jisoo asked me with a full of concern
"N-ne unnie" i said while fake smiling
"Unnie dont act like everything is alright..." lisa said frowning

She's right.........

"Aniyo...im really alright...u dont have to get worried okay???"i said.....with a teary eyes
"U dont have to force that ur always alright...." jisoo said
"Cause if ur always denying ur hurt.......it will effect u more eonnie.." rose said

Making me more teary........,,
Making them notice it

"We know that u still loved taehyung.....even though he broke ur heart....," jisoo said

"U can cry unnie......no ones here......no can see ur tears....u have us.." lisa said smiling

Then i started to cry none stop.....until im sobbing

"Just cry unnie..." rose said while hugging me....
"Let go the pain inside of u " lisa also said while hugging me to
"Remember....we are always here....when u need help" jisoo said while smiling

"T-thank u-u g-g-guys" i said between my sobs
"Stop it unnie!ur making me cry" rose said while she had teary eyes
"Ur not the only one!"
"Me too"

Im lucky cause i have friends like them........
I love them so much.........

Then i heard their cries.......now all of us are crying
"This is ur fault unnie" lisa said while crying
Making me sobbed harder.....

Taehyung.....,.,,,....why would u do thiss to me.......u should rejected me when i confessed to u that time.......forcing u to loved me.........im still suffering because of u.........i cant stop crying because of u.......im hurt because of u...........this is all ur fault........because u turn me into this........u hate u!.....but i cant........cause i loved u......

I have to loved jimin........i cant hurt him like taehyung did to me.........
I will try,i will try to loved him........
I can do it jennie!u can do it!

"Yah!we should go!because the boys might me mad!they are waiting too long now" jisso said

We just nod and wiped our tears

And head to out to the hospital

"Yah!why do u all took so lng???!" Jin said
"Do u know how long we are still waiting" namjoon said

"Mianhe!guys we just have a u know.....gurl talk....." rose said
"What ever....." suga said....

"Wait...wheres jimin?" I Ask them
"He has a fever......."

"Can we visit him??" I asked them
"No" suga answered with out hesitation
"What why?" I asked him

"Taehyung was there........" j hope said
Making me froze......

My heart started aching again...but i have to bear it

"I-i dont care........he's my future boyfriend right?" I said
"But jennie-"
"No i will visit him and that is final" i said

U can bear it jennie....u can bear it right??

"I know u guys are dissappointed and mad to taehyung.....but u guys need to forgive him.......people can have mistakes u know" i said....confidently even though i was hurt

"But-"
"Oppas and unnies.......i he just fall inlove.......no one can stop him....even ur hatred to him......cant stop him......f-forgive him" i said even though i wanted to cry....i cant.........
I have to bear it or else

I heard them sighed
"Fine we can forgive him....but we cant trust him...." yonggi said
I just nodded and smile a fake smile.....

"So we are going to ur apartment right?" I asled them
They nod and sigh
"But dont blame us.....if ur hurt...when u see him" yonggi said
"I wont" i said

I will try......
I will try.....