Not Alone

Chapta 15

This is the end~~

It had been 2 months... and it was a rough 2 months. Over that one week I had grown used to the other fives company and I missed them a lot. I was happy that they had moved on however, that they were free and no longer stuck here.

I went back to work not telling Jessica any of what happened, but I desperately wanted to. Jaebum began to tell me more details about what happened that I never knew.

He explained that he was the one who got me out of Jackson's old house when I had passed out and that he carried me outside and brought me to Mark's never letting me leave his arms. He also explained that once outside Jackson and his Mom got to say their final goodbyes to each other and she was finally able to move on now as well which made me happy.

Most of all he told me that he told me that he loved me and he never wanted to let me go because I was special. I was always told that a relationship built during extremely dramatic and stressful times would never last but I have a feeling this is different.

Besides I don't think those statistics were made with the thought of poltergeist murderers and ghost friends were they? We haven't officially started dating but we both admitted we loved each other so I'm not sure what's keeping us from just admitting it.

It's a little past 1am and I haven't been able to sleep recently, I've had a lot on my mind. I always wondered what would have happened if I never needed that surgery... Would Jaebum still be my roommate? If so would we have connected or would we just be friends?

I don't know for sure and I also don't know how to end my story because it doesn't seem over to me either, the adventure never ends I guess.

Either way I hope this book gives whoever finds it if they are going through a hard and unbelievable time hope that those you need most will always believe you, no matter how crazy you may look.

Moving the pen away from the paper I looked at the clock and sighed. It really was past 1am and I was exhausted. I wanted nothing more than to curl into bed and sleep away all my worries and stress but I know as soon as I close my eyes i'll see him.

I'll see Po or Spencer. I'll see Jackson and BamBam and Jinyoung and Yugyeom... even Youngjae who I only met twice. I miss them so much and I hate that I can't see and laugh with them anymore... I felt tears prick my eyes and I shook my head refusing to cry.

It's been months, I need to move on... for Jaebum. I knew he was struggling and if I never moved on he wouldn't be able to either because I'd just drag him back down. Standing up and I popped my back and threw on a pair of adidas shorts and a navy tank top.

I would assume Jaebum is sound asleep by now... so he probably wouldn't notice if I crawled into bed with him if I left before he woke up..

Tiptoeing down the hall I snuck up to his door and slowly opened it. Jaebum was laying on one side of his bed on his back, his hair messily covering his forehead and his lips slightly parted. He was beautiful and the soft glow of his dinosaur night light made him look ethereal.

I always made fun of his night light but he didn't like it being completely dark because if he got up in the night he'd trip on something and the kids ones are cheaper. It was still cute even if he only picked that one to save a few bucks.

I carefully walked over and sat on the edge of the bed before slowly leaning down and laying next to him. I was sure we didn't touch but I could feel him next to me and that brought comfort over me allowing me to feel safe enough to possibly sleep.

"You can just ask to sleep in here." I heard him whisper causing me to gasp.

I jumped at his voice almost falling off the edge of the bed if he hadn't wrapped an arm around my waist.

"I didn't want to bother you." I whispered and he laughed pulling me into his chest.

"You don't bother me." He said and I hummed laying my head on his chest while running my hand up his torso.

"I just have a lot on my mind, especially at night." I said and he nodded.

He began to hum slightly as he leaned down and kissed my forehead lightly.

"I've had a lot on my mind too, and one thing has really been bothering me." He said and I looked up at him.

"What?" I asked and he smiled rubbing his thumb over my cheek.

"I can't figure out what day I want our anniversary to be so I don't know when to ask you out." He said and I laughed.

Laying my head back on his chest I yawned snuggling into him.

"Today seems like a perfect day to me." I said and he chuckled.

"August 17th it is." He whispered and I smiled falling asleep.