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petits mensonges blancs

              Pregnant . Out of all of the things that she could have possibly told him this was by far the last thing that he would have expected her to say. But than again , her practically begging him to remove her memories of him had been right up there with the pregnancy . He dared himself not to listen , to not allow himself to feel his heart shatter in his chest for yes , he had been with Gia , but his affection for the female before him had never strayed . It had lay dormant for months but today , oh today is had erupted like Mount Vesuvius and he had held back every temptation to jump forward and take what he had desired . He stood there unmoving , statue-like for he had feared that even a centimeter of movement could break that perfect composure that he had perfected ,  that it would cause him to not only hurt Gia but have Davina betray the man who would be the father of her baby . 

             ' I'm sorry , Davina . I can't do that . ' the look in her eyes had caused him to swallow hard , adverting his gaze as he squared his jaw for a moment . there had been heartbreak , disappointment and sadness in those blue orbs and he had wanted more than anything to take it all away from her , but he had been selfish . He was being selfish by not allowing her to be freed of those thoughts of him , the memories and he shouldn't be taking away the only piece of mind that she had . ' You'd end up missing so much of yourself if you cut around pieces . You're strong enough, Davina Claire . You've gone this long without me , i'm sure you can learn to picture me as a ghost instead of a burden . '

             ' you know i've never seen you as a burden and i'd never be able to see you as a ghost . I'd see you as someone who I had loved , who couldn't wait for me and is living the life I wish I had with another female . ' davina chewed on the inside of her cheek as she had stood up and brushed her hands over her stomach and nodded her head at him , hoping that she could hold herself together until she had been outside of the compound . ' it was nice seeing you again . ' her tone was dry as she had turned on her heel and made her way out , ignoring Klaus' snarky remark about how thing had seemed to go great with Elijah , stepping out into the hot Louisiana sun and made her way to the hotel that her and Kaleb were staying at 

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        ' What happened ? is everything okay ? ' davina had wanted to tell him to stop talking , to allow her to get her head on straight but she didn't want to give him the wrong impression , didn't want him thinking that she had done something that she had regretted . ' I didn't see him . He wasn't home . ' Lie number one . What was she going to say to him ? Oh hey , i saw the man i still love and i tried to get him to make me forget him ? No that had sounded like nonsense and he'd offer to take her to the psychiatric ward himself . ' I was hoping to tell him that i've moved on from him and i hope the best for him and that i'm happy . ' lie number two . No , she hadn't moved on from him and knew that as long as he had been a working part of her memory she wouldn't be over him but there had been so many different things that had held them apart that she had attempted to lie to herself with the hopes that she could believe herself . And as much as she had tried to tell him that she had been happy , she wasn't . Davina Claire was the furthest from happy and the possible baby would only make it that she couldn't leave him . 

                       ' i do have to tell you something . ' she swallowed thickly as she had tried to get the words to come out , parts of her memory had been hidden away with the hopes that it would disappear but the more that she had thought about it , the more she knew it would be engraved in her forever . The words were on the tip of her tongue , to tell him that she was pregnant but they didn't want to come out , didn't want to solidify their relationship when she had so desperately wished that they could have just stayed in San Fransisco and didn't actively rip open an elijah shaped wound in her chest . ' I'm sorry i've been putting you through this . I love you, and nothing can change that . ' Lie . 

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          That night she didn't dream , but the darkness and the silence of it all had brought her back to where she had been before she had met Kaleb , how she had been dead and the ancestors had found that as a suitable punishment for her but she had felt like they weren't done yet now that she had been in New Orleans once more . Eyes snapped open , moving to sit up as she swallowed hard and tried to regain her breath as she looked around the dark room to see if anyone had been there but all that had been moving had been the males chest next to her , the rise and fall with the signal that he had been alive . heart had still thrashed wildly as she had gotten out of bed , opened the door to the balcony and closed it behind her with the hopes of the breeze from the Mississippi to clear her mind , and when she had thought she had been alone she had heard a voice calling to her . 

             ' you shouldn't be here , Elijah . ' she had breathed out , arms rest on the railing of the balcony , not shifting her gaze from the people who had been straggling behind the party that had ended not too long ago . the streets which were often alive with people had finally started to calm down and it had become the time of night when both creatures of the night and the humans had rested . ' I hope i'm not pregnant . ' she spoke , licking her lips and looking at him with a shake of her head , hating that she had spoken those words which had made her feel like a terrible person , but there was something about right now that had the truth spilling out as if prompted by some sort of serum . ' I can't leave him if I am having his child , I can't take the baby away from him . ' and not only that , but to deal with the knowledge that she'd break his heart if she had left him .  ' i can't love him like i love you . '

         ' Loved . ' he corrected , leaning against the railing of the balcony , correcting her when she had spoke of it in the present tense , as if she had still been in love with her . He had been focused on her stomach as she had been asleep , unsure if he should have told her that he had known whether she was with child or not , but he didn't know if it had been his place to speak out of sorts with her . ' you told him you moved on from me . ' a scoff had come from between her lips as she rolled her eyes at him . ' you think I can tell him the truth ? I am filling his head with little white lies to keep him from hating me because how am I supposed to tell him how i'm really feeling ? ' it felt like they were going in circles at this point , both of them wanting to say the same thing but something had held them back , something had told them that they needed to be careful or else something bad could happen . 

         ' I love you , Elijah . there is no past tense to it . It is you and for some reason it will always be you . but you're with Gia and i'm with Kaleb and maybe it's better that way because we both are just broken peo-- . ' her words were cut off with the feel of his lips pressed against hers and shock is the first thing that had moved through her before she had eased into it . Her breathing had caught in her throat , but she had reciprocated his movements and the world around her had stopped for them . But then he was gone and she had come back to the reality of the situation , no matter what she did , no matter how much she had tried to convince herself that she loved Kaleb , it was always going to be him . It was always going to be Elijah . 

[ A/N. this is just a little filler chapter , to get some questions answered when it comes to her feelings for the men in her life . i'm so glad to be back and writing davlijah again for you all !! ]