The 9th Members of BTS✔

Without You.......

Diary Entry......

August 23rd, 2018
"Dear Diary, Jungkook is gone...........he's up there in the skies.......... watching the members and I......day by day........ I still can't forget the day he left earth......he had cancer.....he.....was......like a little brother to me.....he knows my favorite color.......favorite Pokèmon....favorite meal......favorite movie.....he knew me better than I know myself. It has exactly been 1 year since that terrible tragedy.

FLASHBACK (November 1st Monday 2017)

The members and I were waiting outside the operation room.

Jungkook just went for operation.

My hands were trembling even more as the time went by.

*couple of hours later*

The doctor finally came out.

His face expression was really hard to describe.

He let out a big sigh, causing me to tense up and become even more nervous.

"I'm sorry...." the doctor said. With that he left.

Those two words were enough to make me fall on the ground.

I got up and barged into the room, only to see our precious Kookie connected to all sorts of needles.

I went beside him and ripped off all the bandages he had on. I began to cry.

"WHY!!! WHY ARE YOU LEAVING US??!!!!!! YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO DO THAT!!!!! CANT YOU COME BACK AND BE THE SAME PAIN IN THE ASS YOU USED TO BE???!!!! HUH???!!!!! TELL ME!!!!! ANSWER ME JUNGKOOK!!!! HOW DARE YOU LEAV-" I said but Jhope came and pulled me into a tight hug.

I started to hut on his chest.

Letting out all my anger and sadness.

"HOW COULDN'T HE DO THAT TO ME!!!!!! HOW COULD HE LEAVE HIS OWN 'SISTER'!!!!!!!! TELL ME!!!! HOW!!!!" I yelled and cried at the same time.

All the members silently cried as well.

Letting all of the pain go.

Jhope pulled me outside because he know I will get worse if I scream and cry at the same time.

We went outside and sat on the bench . He hugged me tightly.

I cried my eyes out and fell asleep.

*next day*

All of us went to the funeral.

Honestly I did not care of what I was wearing. It was raining but I didn't care.

I stayed beside Jungkook's coffin for hours, soaked in the rain.

He already left earth to go to heaven.

I just stayed there in the rain with the rest of the members.

I cried and cried for hours without even realizing.

"Just remember Jungkook, I-we love you Jungkook, I hope to see you up in heaven one day".

With that I close my book.

I sniffle and wipe my tears away roughly.

I miss him badly.

I wish I can see him.

But I have to move on.

You will always be in my heart Jungkook.......I-i love you.......

Sorry for the sad chapter guys!😭😂💕