So how can I be so lonely when I'm surrounded by family and friends ?
let me tell you in my 15 year old life I didn't open up about anything with anyone but my self and to be honest there is nothing in my life, like literally I only have school, home and those friends that are almost bffs but don't text or even ask about me like we have this group chat and they don't even like talk in it, well me being me talk there and nobody replies to me, and its not like we see each other everyday but what ever I'm thinking about quitting this so called group of friends or like loosen up the relationship with them.
anyways lets get back on how lonely I feel well now that you know that my so called 21 group of friends are not so much supporting let talk about home or family, I barley see or talk to my sister because our sleep time does not criss cross I guess ? when she is sleeping I'm awake and when I'm awake she is sleeping and it almost like that everyday and when like we are awake at the same time she go out with her friends and stuff so yeah and me being me get jealous because my friends aren't like hers , my father is barely home, and I got bored of my mother like I love her and stuff but like we do the same things everyday, and there is my annoying little brother that I can't stand, and yeah this is my boring lonely life that I have.
as you see all I do is wander around the house eat and go to the same places every week, sometimes I cry just because I'm bored why ? idk, plus there is no one that like I can poor my feelings to and explain it to me well I don't understand myself and I don't think anyone will ? lets hope my future man does, and I think I have mental problems but I'm going to leave that for a future part and yeah my life is basically me watching Netflix 24/7 and sleeping and repeat on that cycle and throw a couple of visits to my uncles and antes and grandparents and going around the house with no purpose I guess.
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feelings I don't understand and I probably have a mental problem.
