My journal

Day 8 _Not Realistic

I woke up in a hotel room, I looked aside of me and there was Shawn. He was still sleeping, damn, even asleep he was hot. He had his arms around me, even though he was sleeping they were holding me tight. It felt right, everything of it felt right, like it has to be this way. I really wanted to go with him, Damn, I needed to tell my parents (sort of) and convince them to let me go with him to his parents(Not that that would be a success but I guess I can try right?). I really would love to meet them. He told me he had a little sister, I always wanted one.
I heard the door, that woke me up from my thoughts. Someone came in, but I didn't really know who it was and I didn't want wake up Shawn. But no one could see me here now, that would be bad for both of us. I guess. It was Andrew, Shit I didn't know what he would think of this. Gosh, why am I doing this!

"Good morning Shawnie boy, you already woke up from that dream of yours. Did you enjoy yourself yesterday while the rain all day?!" He screamed trough the penthouse. OMG, he was comming in. SHIT. When he saw me he looked suprised, weird. It's not like Shawn never had someone sleeping with him or something right?! Whatever that is for another time. I hold my finger for my mouth to let him know Shawn was still asleep. "Oh, ehhh" he blushed, and he felt akward. "I am sorry, EHH, I got Shawn some tea. But, EHH I-I didn't expect you to be here too so I forgot. Sorry." It's okay, I don't like tea that much so it's totally fine. Does Shawn like tea?" "You don't know? There is coming nothing productive out of his mouth before he had his tea in the morning" he laughed, I looked at him "Wow, I really didn't expect that!" I felt Shawn's hand moving, so I knew that he was awake. "Well, ehh, I got some coffee. I don't know if you like it. It was for Someone else but I will get another one" he handed me the coffee and tea "Are you sure, you really don't have to, you know?!" "Of course, it's not like there is everyday a pretty girl in Shawn's bed!" He winked and walked out after he said goodbye.

"You can drink you're tea now, he is away" he looked at me "how do you know I am awake" "Well, let's see I think it's because I felt your hand moving. And it wasn't moving in a kind of way that you do when you're asleep" I gave him a wink, he smiled "Touchè, now where is that tea!" I laughed and give him his tea "You really like tea don't you?" He took a nip and looked up "you really aren't a fan are ya?!" "I already told you that!" "Well, I do, like Andrew said." I laughed, he looked at me "you're tea is getting cold" he gave me a smile, and put his tea on the night stand "I don't care" and gave me a kiss, I kissed him back. He grabbed his tea again and continued drinking it.

"Is it true?" He looked at me "Yes, I really like tea. Why?" I laughed "I mean, what Andrew said, about the girl in bed part" "You mean that there isn't often a girl sleeping with me?" I nodded "You really think that I am that kind of a person?" I looked down "Shawn I just met you, I really don't know what to think. It's just, you can get every girl. And you're taking me, somewhere I kind of thought that this is normal for you. You seemed so confident." He stopped me "I am not confident, I am scared as fuck all the time. You know why. You're the first I am sleeping with since a really long time. I really really like you, so I really really don't want to mess this up." "Why since a long time?" "Cause I didn't like the girl, or she was wanting something from me. At least that is most of the time my feeling, stupid right!" He looked down "No, not at all. I once got a crush on a guy, he kind of was my boyfriend. But then I discovered he was only with me for the money and because I had rich parents." He looked up and gave me a kiss on my head "I got money enough, not that it matters, but that's one of the many reasons that I am not doing it for the money" "I know you don't Shawn. You're not the kind of guy" he looked at me, "Well what kind of guy am I?" I smiled "A handsome one" I winked.

"What do you want to do today?" He asked, I was wanting to say staying but I know he would say I could. But I couldn't, I had school and work... "Uh, I really want to stay, but I have school and work" he looked disappointed, so was I "Got it" he said, I saw that he took it personally "But you can come if you want" "To your school?!" He looked confused "No, well, I am homeschooled" I stummbled "so it will probably take an hour" "You're sure?" "Well, I would like it. And like my work is here so yea." He nodded "Okay, let's get dressed then!" He jumped out of bed and we took a shower (seperate of course) "you want a sweater from me?" He already was holding one in front of me "yea, thanks" I putted it on and we went to my home. It took longer than usual because nobody could see Shawn.