--------- So not sure if I like this yet but..... yeah and to the other writer on this account(Ashley) FOUR FOR YOU ------------------------
Do you know what it’s like? What it’s like to have no self-respect? What it’s like to be hungry and not eat? What it’s like to be tired but have no time to sleep? To try to blend in and just pray that maybe today will be different? Maybe today will be better. But then you remember it’s your life-and nothing ever changes? Do you know what it’s like to know that you don’t deserve life, happiness, joy, or love? Do you know what it’s like to be me?
Of course you don’t. You don’t know that I dance for hours and hours. You don’t know what It’s like to stay up all night to finish your homework. You don’t understand how I sometimes go days without eating. You don’t understand - you don’t know. So how do you judge me?
You call me a freak when I can’t bring myself to eat. You call me stupid if I forget something. You call me ugly because of the bruises and dark bags under my eyes. You call me a loner because I have no time to make friends. I’m tired; I’m lonely; I’m craving love but you don’t care. You don’t see.
You don’t see how I work for hours only to be told that I don’t work hard enough. Or that I’m too fat. Or that with an ugly face like mine, I’ll never make it. You don’t see how I beg for it to end. You don’t see how much I want it to all go away. You don’t see how I look at you with envy. How jealous I am that you have friends. You don’t see the scars. The scars I give myself as I struggle to be perfect for you. You don’t see …
Me.
so ..... do we like?? or too depressing.
