Honestly, I don't know what to say or feel anymore. I mean don't get me wrong I love my wife I do, but honestly her double standards make it seem a little biased. But i mean that is what happens with double standards. Granted it is partly my fault, but still i would hope that we could be adults enough to handle it. It doesn't seem like that's going to happen. So honestly I am still looking at just completely retreating back into my old shell because that's where I'm the most comfortable at. Just because I've spent probably about a good four or five years so it's something that I would consider as just a renewal of who I am instead of losing part of who am I am. It just makes me who I am, so maybe just maybe we can get this figured out but I'm not sure how well it will work. But that's just how it goes. I don't know what else to say. I really don't have any other places I can vent to. that's really all I'm trying to do here is vent and get this all off my mind & chest because I need to. Otherwise it's just going to build and grow and get even more difficult to make sure I can do this in a healthy way.
