"oh, sorry hope" i said and blushed a little. it was awkward.
"it's okay." she said and blushed a little to.
hope's pov:
nash rolled his eyes again, he still had his arm around awa.
cute.
we sat and talked a while then me and the girls should go shop. the guys wanted to come to and why say no.
first we went to hollister, lacy love that shop she have almost all her clothes from there. when we were there i bought a new pair of short, i needed one. they were high waisted, like all my shorts bc i cant have without, they were purple and white.
it was fun, bc the guys walked with us in every store even with just girly things. in one store they were the only guys (😂)
we ended the day on the market, i wanted coke and nash wanted a banana. after that we drove home with the guys.
when they left me and the girls was alone again.
"have you had a good birthday awa?" i asked her.
"yeah, it was really fun! and i'm soooo happy that i met nash, carter and taylor!" she really sounded excited even if it was over now.
"hahah good" i said and laid back in my bed. i was tired, we have had a fun day.
i closed my eyes and started to think and imagine.
bout taylor?!..
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next day i woke up in the same clothes as yesterday. silly me, i didn't change.
i took my phone and looked at my messages. i've got a new one from my ex boyfriend.
'which collage? ;)' my ex boyfriend had sent.
i just ignored the message and as i was the only one awake i walked to the bathroom. i locked the door and looked in the mirror.
'im a mess'
why did i think like that? but i am.
i'm just a ugly girl, worthless and the dumb one who cutts.
why
why am i here.
i thought of something else and started to do my hair, it was a mess. just like me.
i brushed it and made a high messy bun. i took some make up and walked out from the bathroom to my closet. i took out a pair of hight waist shorts as usual and a tie die crop top that said 'forever young' on.
then i walked and woke lacy up, i like her more than the others, she's like my best friend.
"hey, lacy. wake up!" i whispered. but she didn't wake up so i gave up.
i walked back to my bed and sat down. then i texted nash.
'hey, meet me in the park in 10. the time starts when you answer ;)' i wrote
'then the time starts now :)' i got back quick.
i didn't really know why i said in 10 but maybe he wasn't done yet or something. and it takes time to come to the park so.
before i went out i left a note:
'hi, its hope
i'm out in the part with nash if you wonder where i am and if i'm not home when you wake up.
ill be back soon'
i took my keys so i could come back and then left.
i walked bc i wanted to
on my way i texted nash again 'i'm on my way now, and DON'T bring ANYONE' i texted
'haha ok, just me' i got back.
when i got to the park i saw nash on a bench. i was behind him so i walked over and scared him.
but it didn't work
'hahah hi' i said laughing
'hi hope, what did you want? it seemed to be something important' said nash.
nash's pov:
i drove to the park bc i wanted to be there before hope. when i got there i sat down on a bench.
'she should be here soon' i said to myself. the park was empty.
well it was early so what did i wait to be here?
'hahah hi' hope said laughing after she tried to scare me.
'hi hope, what did you want? it seemed to be something important' i said.
i was worried bc she didn't want someone elso to come and if it wasn't important why now at this time?
she looked down, and i took her head up again.
"hey, you can tell me what happened. i came here alone bc i care bout you. and then why should i tell someone bout what happened' i said and gave a little smile.
i saw her smile to.
"ok, but you not gonna want to be my friend after this" then i interrupt her
"hope, what ever happens i'm still gonna want to be your friend. nothing will change that" i said
"ok, well my family moved here, idk why but i'm happy for it. bc before i didn't have any friends. i was bullied and i used to cut. i'm 1 month clear now but it's hard. every one hated me and i was alone all the time. i couldn't have fun bc if i went out they would pick on me like in school. you, the boys, kendell, lacy and awa are the first friends in a loooong time. the latest friend i had was when i was 6" she said and i interrupt her again. "why aren't you 2 friends more then?" i asked
"bc she talked bout me in secret. to the others that also was mean to me. ik in the year 6 it isn't so bad but when all the people are against one it is even how little you are. it have always been hard. with my family, with everything.
i just don't who i can trust and not anymore. my ex boyfriend treated me like his own little dog. now when i'm we moved back to our home town he knew that and started to text me like he wants me back. and im scared bc idk what he will do to me if we meet.
im just a mess" she said to me.
wow, idrk what to say.
and i feel bad now.
