Hate To Love You (STS#1)

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•||Ch17: Nikkah||•

||Maheen POV||

Next day was my wedding and I was not ready to be marry someone to whom I didn't love. I sat on the window and looked down at sketch of my love. My tears fell on his picture. I looked at the two birds who were sitting on tree in their nest. They both were glued with each other and clippering at lot.

“Look at those love birds who are looking so happy. I wish you were here with me and we both were like these love birds but I guess fate doesn't like the fact of us being one and together,” I talked to the sketch. My eyes were swallowed because I cried from the past few days.

I was also missing Zoya who didn't visit me after her return. I guessed everyone in the family prohibited her. “I will try to forget to you but I know it is impossible to get you out of my heart. I will try to accept Shahmeer my husband,” I said looking at the sketch with a heavy heart after putting a stone on it.

She didn't sleep properly the whole night because she was not feeling well. Her eyes was not closed since past few days for the sleep. She put the prayer mat on the floor and fell down in front of her Lord. Her forehead and nose was touching the floor and her eyes was flowing water. She cried and again asked the apology for her bad deeds.

When I felt my heart was at peace, I got up from the wet prayer mat which was drenched because of my tears. I raised my hands in front of her Lord and prayed,

“Oh My Allah! Please help me to get my love out of my heart. Please give me enough strength to fight against my heart. You are The All-Aware and I know You are aware of my heart condition. Please help me to accept Shahmeer as my husband with all my heart when I married him. Please ease my heart and soul. Please take me enough energy to give my soul to Shahmeer after the wedding. You are the only One who is aware of my tears and cries in the night. I just ask You the happiness of my love which he will get with whom he marry and love. I ask You the happiness of my family which they will get after my wedding. I ask You the happiness of my brother and Zoya which I snatched. I asked You the happiness of Shahmeer which I knew I will unable to give but please make me strong enough to make him happy. Please Allah don't snatched anyone happiness because I can't bear to see them in more pain than I gave them.”

I folded the prayer mat and put it back on its place. I laid on the bed and let all the tears fell on the pillow. Only I knew how painful it was to let forget the love of your life. Only I knew how difficult it was to accept the man as your future and life partner who was going to marry you in few hours which you didn't love.

I badly needed a shoulder to cry on but was not getting any shoulder. I wanted to screamed but my lips were sealed. I wanted to die but my heart was not letting me. Only my Allah knew what I had to bear at that time.