Emotionless | Ein Theorist Book

>>Chapter 1<<

I'm drowning again...

The water slowly invades my body, my lungs slowly dissipating with each shaggy breath I take. A heave, a cough, a dying breath of hope.

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I glare at the plate of buttered bread in front of me, not even toast, just bread. I'm sick of the same food over and over. I sigh in annoyance as I leave the plate empty and walk out the door with my black backpack. 

The street is grey like everything else, the sky is grey to, the sun.. the sun is out of reach. A shooting star that isn't mine to wish upon. I'm a person, why don't I have a shooting star? I hate humans. They annoy me completely, their annoying questions and dawdling; they ruined our lovely planet. But I guess I can't complain completely, we're part human too, I suppose. I sigh with disappointment as it appears I'm already at school, my apartment isn't to far away from school. My Mum is at work right now, it's irrelevant but it's what I think about. Why can't we all share money equally? It's like Dad said. It's a free for all in this world.

A boy with red hair, Blaze, bangs into me, his green and blue eyes glare back at me with pure hatred. I thought we could've been friends when I first saw him, he had a caring glimpse to his personality but not for me. Aphmau's a nice friend I suppose, but, I can't afford to be attached. My goal is to become Alpha make Dad proud, help Mum with work and get a job to help my Mum with financial issues. Again, I wouldn't have to if everyone was equal. 

I stroke my messy black and blue hair with a soft brush of my fingers, my eyes are focused on the front door of the school building, in exactly 10 seconds the bell will ring.

Bring. Bring.

Yep, right on time. I walk heavily into the school halls as I open my locker and stuff my bag inside, pulling out a pen and pencil in the process. My feet touch the ground with a sad suspense as I walk towards my homeroom. My homeroom colleagues are.. boring, to say the least. Silence. Silence. More silence. It's awkward, tense silence. Our teacher is a nervous wreck every morning and always looks as though he has had more than enough coffee. Having him shake violently in random fits, he's young with dark brown hair and soft, caramel eyes, often he wears a black suit with a blue and red heart necklace, they say it's from his girlfriend, who died of cancer, just goes to show you can't love anyone. I almost feel sorry for him but what idiot gets a job when they're completely unstable? Him apparently. My eyes glare at the omega, Daniel. I want to make him stronger. What if he's always weak forever? Maybe for once, this can be a two for all. 

He shrinks down into his seat as the rest of the class do normal teenage stuff, eating in class, vandalising and other weird stuff. I hate this ''class''. 

The bell rings again and I push Daniel over as I walk out the door, hey look, he's stronger than last month, that's for sure, he didn't even fall this time. I listen to the teenagers around me, their conversations stupid and pointless.

"So how long was he in the-?"

I don't even want to know, thank you. 

I growl at my next class, Science. I might've liked it more if I didn't have to sit next to Blaze. He's a complete science fanatic, never shutting up. His tail wags a lot and brushes against my hand and just to annoy me, he comes closer and pokes me. Not comedy gold if you ask me. I open the door and it appears I'm slightly early? Which confuses me, I'm usually late but it's a good start I guess. I snicker to myself as Blaze enters, his ears flat on his head and his tail stiff and not wagging. I look at him more, observing every emotion I could possibly try to acknowledge. 

"What's up?" My deep, hoarse voice echoes in the silent room as the teacher continues glaring at her screen. 

"Ugh, just some idiots picking on Daniel." I smile. I'm an idiot, why can't I show empathy for once. "You're a prick, why are you smiling at that?"

I sigh at myself and look away, mumbling an apology with as much regret as possible. Today was different, he didn't touch me or fantasize about science and the teacher must've been worried because she calls us both back after class.

"Now, Blaze, Ein, what's happened?" Miss Gornall asks, her soft brown eyes hardening as she pushed up her rounded square glasses.

"Ein's emotionless."

At least he got one thing right. Miss Gornall just laughed awkwardly as I nodded and left the room, I don't have time for that. She was angry though.

My next lesson was Art with some kid named Garroth sat next to me, he likes to blabber about Aphmau but we all know she belongs to Aaron, so won't he shut up? Stop reminding me of how worthless I am. I sigh with sadness as I slump in my chair, he smiles at me with a genuine caring smile as he cheekily grins at me, I sit up and he asks, "Can I draw you? We're in Art so."

I nod with a lazy structure and he simply chuckles in response, I start work on my art project that, Mr Cracken set. Ocean blue eyes, lightened by the rays of the sun or metaphorically, happiness. Soft, sandy blonde hair, curled perfectly to the right from his view, a hot beach below him, the sand sinking his tan toes under, a big toothy smile placed on his face. I tap Garroth's shoulder and he shows me his drawing too, not half bad.

"This is amazing, kid!"

Kid? Is this guy a genius or what? I'm a teena- Eh whatever. I put my hand in a thumbs up motion and as class ends, I head to the bathroom. I'm skipping Werewolf Class, I can't bear to face Blaze's hard gaze of solitary confinement. Or the disappointed faces of all my classmates as they see I'm yet another failure, I'm staying here until lunch ends. Or at least begins. I 'forgot' to bring dinner money, but that's cool. I sit on the counter in between the sinks as I eat a Granola bar, stale... Ew, no thanks.

I throw it away and growl at my stomach to shut up. I'm tired, rest will be okay.