•Pinkie || Jikook

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Author Pov.

The couple were laying on jimin bed after their intense session, jimin was really tired but he was thankful that yoongi didn't go overboard and do him over and over like any other time.

His head was resting on the pale guy chest, yoongi used his hand to play with jimin hair as they stayed quiet, they didn't bother talking as they enjoyed each other presence.

Jimin was about to sit up but the boy hand tightened around him, " don't.. " the older said as his tone was a bit dark and protective, jimin smiled as he rested his head back on yoongi chest.

" where did you want to go " he asked as the boy smiled, " nowhere.. just thought you were bored because of me " he mumbled softly as he traced his finger on the boy chest drawing random circles with his finger.

" well I do get bored.. " he started leading the boy to pout as he looked up at him, " but never of you " he added leading the pout on jimin lips develop into a smile, a smile he loved too much, the younger leaned closer to his boyfriend as he planted a small kiss on his lip.

" you know.. " jimin started as he rested his head back on the older chest, " I thought you were starting to get bored of me.. I was so scared yoongi.. " he said as the older stayed quiet.

" these funny thoughts kept invading my mind that made me feel so insecure.. what if he didn't like me anymore.. what if his feelings changed toward me? " he said as the older stayed quiet.. feeling guilty.

" what if I wake up one day to you leaving me? How would I be able to continue living.. " he said as yoongi felt more guilty toward the boy, " my happiness is you.. and it scares me when I think of you leaving me.. "

" you would always shower me with kisses and sweet words.. not forgetting the I love you's " he mumbled as he giggled at the memory of the boy in their first months together, " even though I rarely hear them now.. I still believe in them.. "

" but I do wonder if you really mean them nowadays.. " he said in a questionable tone as he gently caressed the boy chest before reaching to hold his hand, yoongi was nervous and his heartbeat slightly increasing.

" do you still love me yoongi? " jimin asked as the older stayed quiet, he shouldn't be hesitant but he wasn't sure what to say, he loved jimin at the beginning.. but his mind was filled with hoseok.. he himself wondering if he actually still love jimin.

" you d..don't " jimin broke the silence as a tear slipped down his cheek, yoongi could feel jimin tears on his chest but still didn't comment, " you are not even lying.. you really don't anymore.. " he said as he sat up looking at his boyfriend.

Yoongi silently looking at him before slowly sitting up, " you could at least lie to me.. you said you love me.. you didn't want me to leave just now.. and now you don't love me? " he asked as more tears escaped his eyes but yoongi still didn't bother to explain.

The older stood up and walked toward the closet looking for something to change into, jimin eyes followed his boyfriend but felt even more disappointed and heartbroken as he silently watched him change his clothes.

" in the end everyone leaves me... " he said as he hugged himself trying to hide his face away from yoongi, he really wanted to comfort him and tell him it isn't him.. but he couldn't.. even when he knows how broken he was.. how broken he will get.. he couldn't and just left.

Jimin cry as his voice got louder when he saw the older leave the room, he felt so broken and worthless.. he gave everything he have to him but in the end it wasn't enough.. it just made him fall out of love with him.. it was funny how you give up on many things for the ones you love but they never care or notice your effort.

He tried his best to make the older comfortable.. he stopped doing many things just for him yet here he was sitting alone crying after his boyfriend slept with him and left.. not bothering to explain why he didn't reply with a small I love you.. by staying quiet he admitted not being in love with jimin.. and that broke some of what left of him.

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Sorry for the late update ㅜ.ㅠ