Yn Pov
Trinity , So called mad at me now because I hang out with justcys more than her. So I guess she jealous. But I don't have time for all that mess. My pregnancy is going good but Anyways , chres have been acting weird lately as In coming home late at night , Leaving some days during the day. He don't kiss me like he use to, nor say he love me anymore. I have to say it first and he say I love you to dryly. I'm starting to get the feeling that he's cheating and don't love or like me anymore. But I don't want to tell myself that because I don't want to believe it. Right now he's not home he left about a good hour or 2 ago. And this been going on for a couple weeks. Me and the twins are laying in bed with me in my bed watching caillou. Christina climbed on top of me watching tv. I think she's sleepy
"you sleepy?" I rubbed my fingers thru her hair since it was down
She nodded her head
" go to sleep"
Next thing I know she was sleep. And so was Cj. I first picked up Christina then took her to her room laid her down then kissed her forehead , I then went to go get Cj and did the same thing for him.
When I got back to the room chres was there and he scared me , I held my chest
" oh my god you scared me " I said
He faked smiled taking off his shirt.
" So how was your day?" I asked trying to make conversation
" Just fine"
I frowned. I knew he was hiding something . I didn't want to confront him of cheating because i don't know what he'll do. I laid in the bed.. Looking at him , he looked at me putting on his pajama pants.
" what you looking at ?"
I shook my head " N-Nothing"
I laid down. And started to cry .. Silently so he wouldn't hear me. He laid in the bed next to me, laying the other way with he back towards me... Trying not to touch me.. I then cried myself to sleep
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The next morning I woke up and chres want in bed. I rolled my eyes. My pillow was wet from tears. I got up , Went to check on the twins they we're still sleep. I went back to the room , closed the door and locked it. I slid down the wall and cried myself then I decided to pray to god
Chresanto Pov
I left the house and was down the street. then I realized I forgot my phone at home
" Shit!" I said to myself
I hurried up and made an U-Turn and went back home. I ran into the house and went into the room but it was locked. I heard talking so I put my ear on the door and listened
" God. I hope that your listening and I know that I only come to you when I need help. And I apologize for that, I pray to you because I need your help , i don't know what to do, I fell unloved by my own husband. I don't know what's wrong with him but he's making me nervous. I think he's cheating on me but I don't want to think that because I don't wanna believe it. He doesn't even tell me he loves me nor he kiss me anymore and he don't like to lay by me when we're in bed. The kids even miss him , Christina cries when he's not around sometimes but I just have to tell her hell be back... Hopefully. I don't think he loves me anymore because I'm pregnant or he has found someone better than I am. I know somewhere in his heart he loves me , but I doubt it.. A wife shouldn't doubt his husband love for her. I fear that someday that he'll leave me for some other women because I don't think I'm good enough for him anymore , please god , I beg you please .. Help me ... Help us. Help our marriage get back where it suppose to be, amen"
After she said all that , I felt bad. I removed my ear from the door and put my head down in shame. Yeah I was cheating on her again. What I'm doing is horrible. I never knew she felt that way. I decided to give her some space. So I went downstairs and sat on the couch thinking about ... everything
