When I First Met You (Zayn Fanfic) (COMPLETED)

Zayn PoV

"Thank you for an exciting night! Safe travels home!" Harry yells into his mic. I wave at all out fans, and I carry Liam off the stage.

"Your fat Liam." I say grunting, and staggering a little.

"Thank you Zayn." He says laughing.

"Hey! Could I talk to you for a sec?" I ask Liam.

"Sure. What's up Mate?" He says.

"I received a journal from a fan. And I think she sent it accidently. And I don't know what to do with it. I think I should send it back, but I read like 2pages so far, it's very interesting." I say rubbing my hands together.

"Well, in all honesty Zayn. It should be returned to the rightful owner." He says rubbing my back.

"I think so, too." I say quietly.

"Don't overthink it, mate." He says before running to Niall.

I walk to bus, thinking about what I should do.

I climb into the usual tour bus, and we get in our bunk bed.

I open the journal to another page. It was just song lyrics, I read the lyrics.

"...Diana, let me be the one to light a fire inside those eyes. You don't even know me, but I could feel you crying.." And it has a heart right next to it. I re-read the words again.

It brings sadness to my heart. This girl used our song to help her out to get through the day. I read the next page, it was diary entry.

I get comfortable in my bed, and my eyes scan the page.

"Dear Journal,

Tyler told me I'm embarrassing him, and Kyler. I didn't know what to say to that. I just walked off, like I didn't hear it. Moms been getting drunk a lot. She comes home late, making a lot of noises, causing all of us to get up. Tyler, and Kyler have gotten used to it. As for me? I always think someone is breaking in. I don't know. Tyler hates me, Kyler thinks I'm embarrassing, my moms a drunk to even care, and my dad is too busy with his new girlfriend. When will everything be fine again? I'm getting tired of this stupid pretend act I'm playing. I wish someone could just come, and take the mask off for me. To expose my true identity. I cut myself again earlier today again. It was relieving because my intentions were raised high. When will it all blow over?

-y/n"

I close the book, placing a book mark in the place I was on. I get out of my bunk, and climb to the back. I open the window a little, and I take a cigarette out. I take a puff and I look at the stars. The night has taken over. My phone rings, distracting me from my thoughts.

"Hello?" I say softly.

"Zayn! Baby! How have you been?" I recognize the voice, it was Perrie.

"Perrie?" I ask.

"Yes, Darling. I'm back." She says.

I groan, and I place my hand on my head.

"Perrie, I'm trying to sleep." I say hoping she didn't catch my lie.

"Okay, call me ttyl." She says and hangs up.

"So you lie?" Louis says appearing.

I look at him, and shrug my shoulders.

"Had to." I say.

"What's up Z-dawg! Seems like you got your mind clouded everyday." He says sitting beside me.

"I don't know man. A fan sent me her journal. And I've been debating with myself. Send it back, or read it. But I think I found my choice because I read like 4pages now. And I don't know. What she writes gets to me." I say burning out the once lot cigarette.

"Zayn, I think you should read it. Because what if she sent for you to read it? What if she wanted you too? And zayn don't let it bug you." He says yawning.

Don't let it bug me ehh? This girl doesn't know that I know she exist. This girl doesn't know that I know how she really is. And I'm the one in the famous boy and ever. and she's normal. But I like normal. I lie on the couch, looking at the stars. Finally sleep overtakes me again into a deep sleep. If only my dreams will give me my answer.