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Lovely Scars (Momo)

A/n: head's up, this contains some depressing stuff, if you're triggered by that, please, don't continue.

If you are, please, read it while listening to Ailee's Heaven, but it's okay if you don't want to.

Y/n's pov

Fuck, fuck, FUCK! I found myself cutting once again, i found myself being suicidal again.

I would've been surprised if this happened for the first time, but this isn't.

I've been like this for 4 years now, I'm depressed, i have anxiety and I can't control myself when it comes to self harming.

-timeskip- school

I arrived at hell.

"Hey, Y/n" Momo says

She's the only one who dared to approach me, "me" as in "the weird geeky ugly slut"

Momo's beautiful, she can dance, she's smart, (next to me of course) that's why i don't get how she's hanging out with me.

"H-hey" i stuttered

Ever since momo and i got close, i received a lot of back stabbing and threats…

Great, right? More reason to cut.

"Aww, you're wearing a jacket again, are you cold? Sick, perhaps?" She asks, concerned.

"N-no, I'm just-" i got cut off by her friend.

She rolled her eyes at me then took momo away.

I sighed in frustration.

Every single day is stupid

Why am i still alive?

No one would care, right?

Just look at my scars… my wounds…

I'm pathetic.

Thoughts started to fill my head. Oh no. Why now? Please, please don't.

I'm having an anxiety attack.

It's the worse one yet

But how can't it be? The stress that i get from school because of all those unspoken expectations that your teachers put on you, all the bullies that shove you out of their way, all the ones who physically harass you… then your parents. They'll call you worthless, stupid, slut and every other hurtful words they can say.

Why did he even let me live?

I'm losing faith. I'm losing hope.

Is he even real?

I- i snapped back to reality. I found myself at the rooftop. How'd i even get here?

I was crying uncontrollably, i took out a cutter from my bag, then took off my jacket.

I cut myself. 1… 2… 3… and so on. Shit, SHIT, I'm bleeding too much, the teachers are gonna see this, plus, it reeks blood…

Then the door swung open-

There i saw Momo

Momo's pov

"Y/n" i mumbled

I looked back to where y/n was

She sighed, she started shaking, she- she's crying, No, anxiety attack.

I ran after her, not caring about my friend

Y/n can't die, i haven't told her yet, no

The first time i saw her having an anxiety attack, was when accidentally found her below a tree, crying, shaking and c-cutting.

Yes, i know she cuts herself, but i decided to play dumb, i wouldn't want to offend her.

She's fragile, precious, smart, cute and all that, that's why I'm in love with her.

But y/n's not okay right now, i need to stop her

I opened the door harshly, causing it to swung open

She flinched when she saw me.

Blood, there's blood everywhere, and a c-cutter in her hand…

i rushed to her

"Y/N!" I shouted in frustration

"N-no, don't come" she cried

"I'm pathetic" she added

I sighed

I took out my hanky and put it on her cuts, i was stopping the bleeding.

I pulled her away from the spot because of the blood

I hushed her down, kissed her forehead and hugged her

"It's alright, I'm here" i whispered

She kept on crying

"Tell me everything" i said

I was surprised when she didn't even hesitate.

"No one cares, i- i should just-" she slipped out of my grip and ran to the edge of the rooftop

"N-no, y/n, please" i cried out

"G-give me a reason" she shouted

"I- i love you, i fell in love with you" I whimpered as i fell to my knees

She stopped, and went to me…

"M-momo" she was broken, i can see it

"Don't play with me, t-this isn't funny" she cried

"I am not, you think i would go all this way just to save you?" I tried to convince her

"Please" i can't take it anymore

I kissed her.

"I love you, tell me you love me too."

"I- Momo, please" she was still shaking

"Y/n, please?" I pleaded

"I- i love you too"

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A/n: sorry bout the concept.

P.s: pls vote