When Love Takes Over

"Intimacy" out of Love or Lust?

(If only would I be able to go back in time and change all the stuff that I did for someone, who I know didn't deserve it, things would definitely be different.)

After I confessed my love to him, we decided to meet in person for we still were a couple that was together because of the virtual world. Like every other love sick girl, I started day dreaming about how things will change for good, once we meet. We planned our first date after I completed my shift at my day job. I was dressed at my best because I was naive and thought that he'll be impressed. Finally we met and the look on his face after he took me in was worth all the efforts I had put in.

We talked for about an hour and he kept on showering me with praises of my beauty. I had to reach home before my deadline so we planned to meet again a day after. We left separately as we had to go the same place and that too unnoticed. We kept on seeing each other at a regular basis for months until his work re-started as well as my college. One fine night, Aarav asked me out for a ride and since he knew I couldn't get past at night we decided to go during the day hours. He picked me up after my shift and we off we were to chase the dusk. 

All the while we were together, he kept on complaining about how I did not give in to his demands for intimacy and he went as far as to blame me for not trusting him. His definition for intimacy was different to mine. Honestly, I didn't believe that intimacy is gained only through body contact. Call me old school for it I don't care; even now I have the same notion. But then he was my boyfriend and I kept mum. He took my silence as a weakness and started pressing for things I wasn't ready to give. He didn't even consider for once that the things that he was saying were hurting me badly and that I had started crying. We were in the outskirts of the city and I didn't have any option but to ask him to take me back. We didn't speak on the way back and after that for another 10 days.

On the 11th day, I received a text from him saying that he was sorry and that he would like to make it up to me by taking me out for a movie. I didn't want to talk to him and I said as much but he kept on making efforts to fill in the drift that had taken root.  I was tentative at first but I decided to give him a chance and agreed for the movie date.  As planned, he was waiting for me in the theatre's parking lot. We made it a point to arrive and leave separately so that our relationship stayed a secret.

 He had already booked us seats and we settled for the movie to start. I looked around myself and found the theatre to be occupied by only ten people including us. On questioning why the rest of the seats were empty, a cocky grin spread over Aarav's lips. He inched a bit closer towards me and linked our fingers. My heart skipped a beat in anticipation to what he would do next. He took hold of my palm and turned it over and brought his lips down in a soft kiss. A warm blush spread over my cheeks and we both were grinning. The movie started and we turned our attention to the screen. I felt Aarav's thumb tracing idle circles on my forearm and noticed him staring at me. I faced him and chastened him to pay attention but he ignored my words. From the corner of my eye I knew that his eyes were roaming all over my face and were halting for a bit longer on my lips. His hands were exploratory now and were moving in a rhythm from my shoulders to my fingers. I turned to face him and at the same moment he leaned in towards me. One moment we were sitting apart and the other moment we were so close that we were sharing breath. He looked straight in my eyes and I blushed deeper. As if on cue, he cupped my face in his hands and gently brushed his lips against mine. I closed my eyes and leaned in his touch. He started trailing feather-light kisses on my mouth, my cheeks , on my jaw and I hooked my arm around his neck. His lips met mine and this time there was a certain hunger in the kiss. My lips parted for him and he slid his tongue into mouth. From there it was a dance of lips and tongue. He bunched my hair his hands and my fingers fisted into his hair and he started drawing me closer to him. After I don't know how long, we entangled ourselves and Aarav had a earsplitting grin plastered on his face. He then enquired if now I knew why the seats around us were empty and then I understood that he had done this on purpose and taken me out for a movie which had not done so well on the box office. 

All along he had planned on hooking up with me and had left me oblivious to it. Our little bout had lifted his spirits and he was very confident enough that I would agree to take our relationship to the next level.