my dearest boy,
i'm compelled to write to you because that is all that i know how to do. i apologize; it's nothing amazing, nor is it anything special. my goal here is to give you something to read on nights like these.
i firstly want you to understand that i am madly, utterly, and insanely in love with you. nothing will change that; no matter how in your head you get about anything under the atmosphere. i already told you that this is all that i can give you now, and for that, i'm sorry.
secondly, i want you to know that i'll be in the same place i've always been; a text or a call away. even though i might be asleep, i'll wake up. (there's this funny thing that the rumored God does; he wakes me up when people need me.) if it's as small as hearing me say that i love you, or as big as something that you need my help battling; i will be there. i will continue to fight for and with you in anything you ask me to. (and a little bit more; because you know me.)
thirdly, i want you to realize this: i know that you're in pain. i know that you're hurting, and i know that i can't do the most that i should be doing. please don't hide from me anymore. i want to listen to you, and i want to help you in any way possible. i'll try my hardest to do what i can, and if i'm not doing enough then i'll do even more.
you are more strong than you lead yourself to believe; you know that as well as i do. you are sensitive, yes, but strong people accept their feelings and they face them, much like you do. i think that you're extremely brave and courageous; i look up to you this way. you're rational about emotions, which helps you greatly in analyzing and accepting them.
you're beautiful, even when you're vulnerable. please don't fall for some silly trap that tells you that vulnerability isn't strength; it very much is. you entrust that i will help you, and that i will accept you in any state -- that, my darling boy, is beautiful.
forgive me for ranting. lord knows that neither of us need to hear me talk anymore, no matter how little voice is actually used. take pride in your rest; you are allowed to have it. you are shaped now into someone worth fighting for; someone worth living for. you are worth everything i could give you and more. do not fear who you are; for if i -- the most fearful gal on the planet -- don't fear you, you have nothing to fear.
accept who you are. you are allowed to be who you are; for it will shape you into who you wish to be wherever you go.
sincerely yours,
me.
