Fears..
We are all afraid of something.
Sometimes it's silly like..spiders
But others can be horrific..Like afraid of..people...
And that's my problem..
I'm scared of them..
But I couldn't stay alone
So I have to become one of them to get along with others..to be in the
"cool group" be the part, of the team.But what if I don't wanna be there ?
What if I just want friends ?
I don't wanna go in crowded parties
I don't wanna look like Barbie for make up and wear clothes like slut..
I just wanna be meI just UGH.. it's just frustrating..
It's really frustrating that...we have enough money to help others..
And others don't even have enough money for nice clothes...And like..it makes me depressed that I wanna help but I can't..
And even if I could I would be afraid
To help because..I don't wanna ruin anything...What if I would do something wrong ?
What if I would look stupid..what if people would judge me..
And there we go
Judgement
Of course..
It's not nice to judge others!
Can you realize that some people died just because you judged them ?
Some people cry every night just because you judge them for who they are..You're a killer..
Because, you know
"Ew,she's fat"
"Geez, she's so ugly"
"Guess she never heard of make up"
"Dude look, she's totally flat, LOOOL"
(has no boobs or butt)
"Omg, EWWW, don't touch me! You're disgusting bro!""HAHAAHAHAHA! You're like a Brother to me!! And You. Just. Got. Friend-zoned!"
Or gossips..
"I heard Melissa eats bugs""Amy told me that Sarah puts socks in her bra!"
So what if...
What if they do that ?Hm!?
It's their life!
Not yours!!
And You Don't Know What Is It Like!!!You don't know how many tears these people cry every night just because of..You
And You don't even notice that you are playing with their lives..
I'm not saying You reading this must have done any of that..
I'm saying that there-
Out in the world are people that do it without even caringIt's like it's their hobbies to bully others..
Well, guess what ?
You are none of the judges!
And believe me, having anxiety as well..
You're scared to go out...And everyone feels like you're the new weird lonely girl/boy in the town just because you don't go out
Now I'm out of what I wanted to talk about
But I needed to do this
Because....
I
Don't
Wanna
Die
As I was saying
Some people don't have enough money for clothes so they won't be judged..
And instead of helping you make it even worseAnd that's what you need to
realizeBecause these people...deserve lives
We all do.
No matter how bad we are.We got our lives to live them
Not to end them.