Heartbeat (English Version)

Cruel to be kind

Beam POV

Forth took my key room. I can go down and ask for the spare key from the security but i am too lazy so i decide to clean my bed, open my window and take a bath. After i took a bath i see forth had prepared the foods. He sit on the sofa comfortably, like it's in his own house.

"beam must be hungry right? Forth brought sushi and tonkatsu. Forth do not know beam's favorite food. Forth only know that beam like Japanese food" Forth put a big smile on his face that can melt all my female colleges, but that won't work for me.

I stand in front of the table and stare him with irritated feeling "who told you that you can eat in my place? And stop using a polite speaking with me, you sounds ridiculous"

"Phana asked forth to make sure beam eat, so forth won't go till beam eat, oh... Forth also brought you pain killer and antibiotic" forth still speaking in polite form to me, he really test my patience.

"So you will go after I eat?.... Alright" I take a box of sushi and start eating on my bed. Forth sit still and only staring at me.

"you don't eat?" I ask

Forth push his sushi box to me and say "beam can eat forth's too, after last night accident beam probably had lost a lot of energies and must eat a lot"

"cough.... Cough...." his answer make me choke my sushi.

Why he had to remind me about last night accident.

Forth push a glass of water to my hand and sit beside me while patting my back. His body is too close. I can smell his body scent and feel his warm. And that make my heart beating so hard.

I must be crazy.

I stand and move to the sofa, trying to stay as far as possible from froth. But that sudden movement make my lower body ache like hell.

Forth stare me with concern. He want to said something but I cut him "I ate. Now you can go"

"but beam haven't eaten the medicines"

"I will eat it later"

"No, forth know beam won't eat the medicines if forth go"

"forth, I am not a child anymore" i try to convince him but forth are so stubborn. He take the medicines and a glass of water from the table "beam want to eat it by yourself or forth have to give it to beam mouth to mouth?"

I stare him in disbelief.

Mouth to mouth?!

But forth looks serious and start drink water from the glass. Before forth do something crazy, I took the medicines and the glass from forth's hand then swallow the pills one by one.

"Are you satisfy now?"

Forth show another big smile

"so why haven't you gone already?" I start to lose my patience. It's not like I don't feel grateful to forth, coz he brought me foods, but his existence make my heart feels uneasy.

"if you want to talk about last night accident then forget it. I don't remember anything. So you don't have to feel guilty. Beside, it was not your own mistake, I did too so let's forget it" I try to convince him one more time.

"but forth remember all of it... I did cruel things to beam"

Silence.

I am speechless. I want to dig a hole in this room and burry myself. God! why don't you erase his memories too.

"beam... " forth try to stand closer to me

"stay right there... " I shout

"if beam want to avenge your anger, forth will take it. If beam want to hit forth, forth will take it too" ask him.