Me and my emotions

summers gone

2 days til school😭

god i wanan cry

CRY SO MUCH IT HURTS

CRY TIL I CANT CRY NO MORE

I WANNA SCREAM

SCREAM SO LOUD

god i cant do this

hes ignoring me

and im overthinking ofc of wat he might be thinking about me

fml

why cant i be normal

i miss them

but emily they just left u, shay and brysen left u just today

ik ik but still

i get super lonely

i kinda regret moving

i regret it cuz im lonely

im always lonely

the children here r younger than me

i kinda wish shay lived with me

i would be less sad

yes i would cry but it would be becuz we have sad hours together

we also would smoke weed

goshhhhhhhhh im alone

i also made my bf sad yayayaya for me

but now hes callin faith, his hoe best friend

ya know i should turn into a hoe

not like fucking guys each nite

but like hoe photos

god i cant be a hoe i look like a nerd 🤓

im watching homeland with my dad

but rn hes putting tanner and tenly to sleep

my lil siblings

alethia is puttin taytem to bed in her room

taytems not my sibling but she says im her sister

whatever ig i snt do anything about it

i wrotr the start of this chapter a few fays ago and forgot to finish it

tomorrow is tuesday

which means imma get my stuff from my moms

i might get pressured yayayya fun isnt it? getting pressured by one of ur parents?

no, no its not, its hell

i hate being pressured by my mom

she blames everythhing on me

nothing on cole

cuz hes perfect

god my mom wnated me out so bad she packed my stuff for me

idk if she wnated me out but whenever she got mad at one of us she told us to go live with our dad

i think that was supposed to be a bad thing but hoe well

its not bad living here

except for:

screaming/crying children

if ur a teen like me, no one is ur age

bedtime is a huge fuss for the children

ur constantly lonely if ur the only teen

ur sometimes told to do this dishes, laundry, sweep, mop or whatever else

u might have a small room

ur dads gfs neice and nephew r ur fav ppl but they live far away

but the good things are that:

i have my room to hide in

i get weed

i found cigs and i stole them:), i smoked them with shay but she only had a few, we smoked 3 or 4 the first nite gosh we r crazy then like when i was almsot done them and had like 2 or 3 left i told brysen to meet me at the front deck and i lit one and i showed him and he smoked one with me while we talked and shit then we went inside and he went to my room TO FIND THE CIGS and he FOUND THEM and stole one🙄😒

but fr  i wouldnt care if he took two when i had the whole pack but i had like one left

i lost a half a cig and i was so mad

and like rn i kinda need a cig or like want one idfk

im prolly addicted but idk

who cares? not me

i wanan be one of those teens who has alot of money and whos best friend lives with them and we just smoke weed in our room all day and vapes and imma be smoking cigs and shit

if only

god me and shay should live together lol

we would smoke weed and be high all day and like go to spencers and get shit with the weed symbol on it

our birthdays with be weed themed and have weed brownies

god that would be some life

anyways i might rant tomorrow and tell how my day was at my moms and shit

~pce