Shits happened in the past few weeks I guess
Lost my friend faith, her fucking fault
I'm sad
Like idk how much but I'm just in a sad mood
-I miss shay sm
-I want a vape but like my moms to bitchy to drive me to Brandon
-I want weedI guess that's it, I read shays old story and started missing summer, gettin high, trying coke, stealing brysens vape, smoking weed, my dumbass convincing shay to smoke cigs with me
Speaking....shays goin to my dads, I moved away idk if I said that but I did, it didn't feel like home, I FUCKING GOT SIDETRACKED WHO CARES
yes shays goin to my dads, waiting for shay, alethia, or brysen to snap me ig, mainly just shay:/ she will forget about meh, doubt she will forget but I think she will, I love her(no homo) but omg, I'm sorry I don't mean to favourite but shay understands me, she hated when I talked About how cute brysen is, how I missed him, and shitt, and I'm not keeping it in anymore, idk if shay has read my story's lately but I miss brysen I truly do, our talks, when he wanted to smoke weed he would ask me, I remember when him and shay came to the farm and I went to the spare room, brysen followed me after a few minutes when I went, I stood up and he's like "wheres my hug?" And then we hugged for so long, I felt safe with him, I wanted to cry becuz I missed him sm😭when everyone was asleep or busy I would text him and we would either text or call. I mean we still talk today, it's just..... I miss him as my bf, he's not coming back I know and ppl say I will find someone better but when tf will that be.
I checked snap, shay was on an hour ago in Winnipeg and alethia was on 3 hours ago in portage, i tried texting them but I'm not that important,I want to go this weekend but it's my moms weeknd off and it's my dads birthday and I don't think he wants to come get me I rlly wanna cry skksksks
I miss them
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HThey prolly r gonna get high😔I have 2 cigs and 2 lighters, brysen wants me to steal a pack of cigs for him, I'm just his cig supplier, nothing else. But he's not getting any, fuck him. Imma ask if I can take a pack of cigs with me if I go, and keep them for myself and only give him a few, Ethan's gonna be there so I might give him some, UGHH help
They prolly talkin bout me, I'm useless I get it but plz don't embarrass me alethia
Shay said we will face time if I don't go, she will forget I know, I'm tempted to FaceTime her rite now but I know she won't answer
IMMA DO IT ANWYAYS BUT LEMME PISS
I'm back and she never answered, well it takes Three hours to get back to go Glenella so I might ft her at 10 but it depends on if she is there, they might smoke weed without me and I really hope I go this weekend I just hope my dad comes to uncle Tom's to pick us up because I really miss Shailee and Brysen, I wish they never lived so far away😭 and I really miss summer, the high days with shay, the nights we cried, some nites we would sneak out and go to the bales and just have sad hours and listen to lil peep, we also would drive around the field and the roads when we were allowed, i also remember when Alethia ditched me, brysen and Ethan at one of the haunted houses and then they drove off I got so scared. A truck came and I got fucking scared but then alethia and then came back and I fucking ran to the van and hopped over the fence and got in the fucking van and I hated them for doin that, it was horrible I don't really know why they ditched us, apparently it was she leaves idea but yeah I really miss those days because they were the funniest and now I'm just bored in my room waiting for another shitty day of school to happen like which is every day because I lost faith, so like the only best friend I have a shay and mason but I sometimes make him upset and I apologize because I hate doing that. I don't apologize to Shay because she knows me in real life and stuff and Mason doesn't, but me and him have FaceTimed, he's a pretty nice guy and in my opinion, guy best friends are the best because girl best friends kind, but some of my girl bets friends aren't bitches😂, all I want weed right now I just have cramps because of my fucking period. I hate this I really want to go to the farm, I know I said that but whatever I just really wanna go because I haven't seen them in forever and my mom sometimes lets me go to see them because she knows my connection with shay and I told her how we've connected in the past four years probably six or five now, but yeah I guess that's about it.
I'm voice recording this, there is probably alotta mistakes I have to fix but that's OK, it saves me from typing.
I can't believe they might smoke weed without me, they probably will on my gosh! Brysen, Ethan and alethia are going to have a weed competition, I don't remember what brysen said the weed was called, but me, cole and alethia smoked this monster Kush and this silver something Kush and it wasn't that bad, itgot me a really high though and Brysen fucking said I didn't know how to inhale but Alethia said I inhaled properly and they didn't believe I was high, so she sent a picture of me to the chat and I looked stoned as fuck,......
Bryson texted me on Snapchat and I check to see if I could see him on the map but of course you didn't love me and he just opened my snap and I turn off my phone because why the fuck not I might ask him if they're at the farm so that I can FaceTime shay because I'm lonely right now and I really miss the fuck out of that child she doesn't know how fucking much I miss her, I love her so much and she is the best she doesn't fucking know it
Shay if you read this you're fucking amazing I love you I don't regret meeting you and you've made my life more interesting I fucking love you so much I can't wait to see you I hope I see you you better fucking FaceTime me when you can if I don't go but I hope I go cause I'm gonna fucking have the shit out of you I might cry but who the fuck cares it's with you and you don't judge me because I don't judge you I love you bitch!
Billie Ellish is literally my favorite fucking singer like oh my God I love her she's so pretty and she's got was I want blue hair just because she has blue hair I fucking love her oh my gosh your music is like my shit here I don't care what anybody fucking says I love Billie Ellish she's so amazing and she probably the happiest fucking person alive and she inspires me and I really want to fucking meet up because if I do I'm probably going to cry I hope she comes to Canada
BILLIE ELLISH COME TO CANADA
I really really want to meet her she needs me but she needs to produce more music fam, like on my God "when the parties over" is such a good time I fucking love it the affects of the black tears are so amazing
Skskksksks me and shay r face timing soon, she's talking to someone I don't wanna spill who it is cuz that's her choice and her privacy, I'm singing lmao
We're going to go to my go to my go to my God she was opening my snaps I'm so happy I just texted her,I hope she responds, I'm gonna FaceTime if she answers, fuck like bitch better not forget about me if she's high and doesn't forget and forget to FaceTime me I'm gonna be so mad at her like oh my God bitch she better FaceTime me also she also her crush gave her his Vape I hope she brought the breeze so I can fucking use the breeze and she can use the Vape, shay text already come on bro
SHE TEXTED ME SKKSKSKSKSKKSKSKKSKSK I LOVE HER SKKSKSKSIDC IF ITS HOMO OR NAHH I LOVE HER IM TALKIN BOUT U SHAY!
Good songs
Good old day by Kesha and Eminem
When the parties over by Billie Ellish
Nineteen by lil peep
California world by lil peep
Idontwannabeyouanymore by Billie Ellish
Ocean eyes by Billie Ellish
Self care by Mac Miller
Dead batteries by $uicideboy$
2nd hand by $uicideboy$
Cry alone by lil peep
Haunt u by lil peep
Come Thru by Phora
Fefe by 6IX9INE
Otw by Khalid
Jocelyn Flores by xxxtentacionOofies
Baiii
YOU ARE READING
Me and my emotions
RandomBasically some of my thoughts in a book type thing, I'm not always sad ya know, I can be ok at times but there's certain ppl to make me ok.