homewrecker | e.d

chapter five

ethan dolan
the next day

"hey," i kiss gracie on the forehead, walking into the kitchen. "we need to talk about something."

i watch as her smile fades from her face and she crosses her arms over her chest, raising a brow at me. "what'd you do?" i sigh, rubbing my lips together, wondering how in the hell i was supposed to explain this mess to her.

"so you know how i told you about the girl i dated in high school?" i ask and she nods her head slowly. i take a deep breath and explain everything to her from when i left her the day i found out trinity was pregnant to today, leaving out some key details of course.

she just shrugs, "why should this concern me? i trust that you'll do the right thing and won't let old feelings resurface." too late for that. she wraps her arms around my neck, giving me a quick kiss. "trinity told me she wanted to meet you."

before she can reject the idea i quickly tell her that she would bring bailey and we could even invite grayson and kathryn over if it made gracie feel more comfortable. "i mean, if this is so important to you then okay. when?"

"tonight?" she licks her lips and looks away from my eyes. "sure, i can make some alfredo." i smile at her and smother her face is my sweet kisses. "thank you, i love you. just," i pause and shake my head, "don't tell grayson. i want it to be a surprise."

trinity west

i stand up and brush myself off, excusing myself as i answer ethan's call. "hey, dinners on for tonight at my place." i hear and i glance over at nate, who's cleaning up our picnic. "sweet. what time should i be there?" i ask and i hear a few loud noises in the background before the line goes silent.

i roll my eyes and hang up. i text ethan asking what time i should be there and asked for his address.

"you ready to go?" nate moves my hair to one side of my head, but i quickly turn around, afraid he would see my hickeys from ethan. "yeah, could you just drop me off at home? something came up at school and i need to do hella homework." i lie.

i felt guilty leading him on like this.

but it's not like ethan and i are dating again. it was just a one time thing.

a mistake.

that's what it was.

"yeah, sure." he sighs and i smile sorrily at him.
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the butterflies fill my gut as i'm getting ready to have dinner with ethan and his fiancée. i throw on a white turtleneck, covering all my hickeys that were still visible with makeup. i pull my skirt down a little so my ass wasn't hanging out of it.

i sigh as i look at myself in the mirror. i looked like a mess, anyone could see it. i was filled with so much guilt and anger. i was mostly angry at myself for letting it go so far with ethan yesterday afternoon.

i should've stopped him when i was going to. him touching me felt like a distant memory and i wanted to relive it. i wanted to feel on top of the world like he used to make me feel.

how he still makes me feel.

bailey waltz into my room and her little jaw drops. "you look so pretty mommy." she jumps up and down and hugs my legs. i beam down at her and she grins at me. "let's go see daddy."