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Green eyes

Those eyes. Those damn green eyes.

I could write about them all day, they are stuck i my head, I see them all the time, and I love them so much. I'm not lucky enough to be able to see them close to me, they're probably a thousand miles away from me as I talk. But I love them, from all my heart I love them. Too many times I dreamed about them, about that man who holds such a big place in my heart, taking almost all of it, all I have. It may sound pathetic, but he's taken all I have. All my love is towards him, all of me. I can't help it, it's been 7 years and I just can't help it. It's the way it is, maybe someday I'll have the chance to have that face right in front of me, those deep eyes staring in mine. Maybe. Or maybe they'll just stay in my memory, the best memory of my whole life. I wish I could feel his touch, his hugs and hold him as close to me as I can, strangling him if I have to.

He would never know unfortunately, he will just have a thousand girls say this to him everyday, and he'll forget about almost all of them that very night. So what's the point you may ask. It's selfish, honestly. I would just feel complete. No one quite understands what I feel and why, it just seems stupid I guess. I wish they could though, cause at least I would get to talk about it, not only in my mind.

I wish I could forget about them, but I can't. I can't take that away from my mind, the whole person that I am would not exist. Pain would just be all over my body really. It's still here somewhere, but not as much present as I know it could be.

I know love is a very strong word to use here, some of you probably find it completely ridiculous and I get it. It's weird. Maybe I'm not using it right, maybe I could use some different words but hey, this is what I want to write and for the moment it feels good. I'm feeling good writing this because e it's one am and I feel comfortable. It sounds cheesy and stuff I know. But that's what love feels like at the moment. I wish I could feel this way a little longer but I know I won't. 

This is all I have, all I have to give. 

So that's it for those eyes that haunts me.

I would just feel c o m p l e t e.