FOUR MONTHS.
Four months. No hello. No Hi.
Then you texted me like nothing happened.
I admit I miss you. I really miss you so much.
But then, I need you to understand that I felt devastated. I still feel.
I asked you if you want to tell me something but you didn't answer.
You never explain.
You acted casually and it's killing me.
That's why I told you everything.
I said, " You insulted me too much and hurt me badly. I started to change my life plan because I started to put you there. The time you decided to hang me without any explanation, is the time I decided to introduce you to my mom. With my family. I never entertain someone else because I love you. I really do. And sorry if I am too late to show it. Sorry if I tested you too much. Is it the reason? "
If that is the reason, Sorry about that. I just don't know how to be someone's girl again. I am confused about being good or a little bad so that you will stay. And due to this confusion, I acted being me but I guess it doesn't work at all.
Then, instead of explaining, you just said, "Sorry talaga. God bless always."
I just cried and cried until I felt tired.
I keep asking myself, " What the heck! What is wrong with me? Am I too ugly? Is it being good is not enough? Why is it that all the guy that I loved will just leave?
I can't. I felt tired hoping that I deserve to be loved. To be treasured. To have cared.
You killed me once. And you killed me again.
