Hey
So I kinda think I've gone mad...
1. Sometimes I feel like I'm watching myself in a movie. Like everything around me isn't real. Like I'm floating. And it's horrible because I feel like I have no control.
2. Sometimes I feel like everything is too real. Like I can't deal with it anymore. Like a mix of emptiness, sadness and tiredness. Like I'm a waste of time and space. A burden. Like I'm never going to be good at anything, so why bother.
Like I should just give up for good.
3. When I'm not feeling like one of the two above, I'm so freaking terrified. Scared that something could happen. That I might do something wrong and everyone will hate me. Like I will ruin something or someone just by existing.
I'm sorry.
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my story
Randomhey internet. although it is highly unlikely anyone will read this, it feels good to tell my story. my story is still going, so I'll update this. anyway, see ya TRIGGER WARNINGS: ~self harm ~depression ~anxiety ~etc.
