I'm scared and I hide
I lose and I cry
I win and feel pride
Yet my emotions run dry
This is how it's supposed to go correct?
But it never does
It seems like God places my mind in a blender
Just to see if it still runs
I am strange
That is a fact I do not hide
But to put it simply
I'm sad inside
It's so selfish of me
To wallow in self pity
Sadness turns into hate
Even when all is well
It seems that I can never hide from the truth
Which makes me scared
But in the end I deserve it
In the end I deserve hell
