you will leave

the first

You were.. Mysterious. Never forgot your flirtacious routes, the way you spoke to guys and girls a like. Twiddling your hair between those soft fingers and giggling while I was right there. For a while you didnt notice me, kept flirting but I was nothing special. Your name made me blush, your.. Voice made me shake. You were the first. The first girl I ever loved. You led me down a path of self-destuction I will never be able to rebuild but when you told me you loved me first.. I wouldn't change us for a second.

Yes you cheated, but I wasn't good neough in the first place. I still think about you, about when you text me telling me you liked me. I remember just sitting back, closing my eyes and smiling. I didn't realise how I felt until I felt it, that.. Need to be with you.

firsts are like that