Closed Blinds

Chapter 1 - Intoxicating Capsule

It started in the beginning of last month. Maybe between all the cramming for finals or the repulsive noises coming from down the hall each night. See, my mother deserted me and my father when I was 15. It was out of the blue. I truly believe she was having an affair and left us for the other guy . I haven't talked to her since, not that I'm complaining.

My dad and I handled it well for about the first year. I knew he was bound to break, but I didn't expect it to happen when it did. One night I has just woken up from my nap, and seen him coming through the door with a woman. I gave the benefit of the doubt, figuring she was just a colleague or something. I never felt the need to introduce myself, so I just went back to napping.

Then, night after night, more women would show up in our home. Some dressed slutty, others in average clothing. He would bring them up to his room, and you just about guess what they did. I didn't know these women but I'm hoping he at least did. I'd like to think my father would never pay for sex, but these days you never know.

In addition to the random women in our home every night, alcohol came into play. Now my father has always drank but never this much. Now, it's cases at a time. We have enough alcohol, that if you came into our den you'd think a frat party was about to start.

I'm trying not to become an alcoholic but when I get stressed and I walk pass the vodka,wine, and beers, I get tempted. I always end up drinking. Now most of the time when you're drunk you'll pass out, but lately that's not the case with me.

I stay up all night, and all day ever since my father has become like this. I guess you can say I have insomnia. The only way I go to sleep is taking pills that make me sleep. No, not sleeping pills, those are usually prescribed or main motive is to make you sleep. I take medicine that has a side effect of tiredness. I refuse to go to the doctor and tell him about my lack of sleep.

During these nights when my dad is busy, and I can't doze off, I put on my vans(or Supras),hoodie, and make my way down the dark road, waiting to find something to spark my interest in a good way for a change.

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Song of the chapter : Pills & Potions - Nicki Minaj