-after several begs and pleas from everyone excluding zayn,i decided to go back downstairs and continue the game of truth or dare. everyone sat down in their normal seats and kept on smiling and laughing while i just stared at zayn. how could he say sorry,after two years? i quickly looked away,seeing everyones eyes on me. "what?!" i asked,giving everyone a confused look. louis laughed and pointed around the circle motioning that it was my turn. "oh! umm...harry-truth or dare?" i asked,grinning at him. harry smirked and crossed his arms across his chest. "dare!" harry replied excitedly,still smiling at me. i thought of the perfect dare and smirked at harry,he was looking kinda nervous now. "i dare you and jess to make out in the closet,only in your underwear-unlimited time." i told him, making everyone but harry and jess to giggle. they both shrugged and got up, going over to the closet and closing the door behind them. danielle,eleanor and me giggled as the boys started thinking of jokes to tease harry about. "so,how was it making out with mister malik lexi?" louis asked,causing zayn to slap him across the back of the head and me to play with my fingers,which i usually do when i'm nervous. "answer the question lee!"louis teased,making niall and liam laugh uncontrollably. "leave her alone guys" zayn said,glaring at them all. "nah,we wanna hear how it went!" niall chimed in,setting them all off again. "it was the worst kiss in my life and i never wanna do it again. there,happy now?"zayn told them,causing my heart to break all over again. that's what he thought of me? "zayn! man,we didn't want you to go that far-we were just joking!" louis yelled,glaring at zayn. he just crossed his arms and smirked at me. "no. we should be honest with each other shouldn't we?" he said,staring into my eyes. i didn't want to come back at him,because i already knew this wasn't going to end well. "zayn,just stop" danielle said seriously,trying to ease the tension. zayn held up his hand,motioning for her to leave him alone. "no,i wanna be completely honest. two years ago lexi and i dated. i went behind her back and dated another girl,which i loved. her name shall not be named,so let's just call her 'blondie'. i found blondie cheating on me,which left me utterly heartbroken. i loved her,but i loved lexi-i loved both of them. but lexi doesn't deserve me anymore. i'm done with her,and she's done with me." zayn said,causing everyone to go speechless. "zayn,please stop" liam said,knowing how much he was breaking my heart. i couldn't help but remember the feelings i still have for him,the feelings that will never leave.
"no louis! i wanna say everything that i need to say! i wanna lay everything on the table. i wanna tell lexi that after blondie and i broke up,i wanted her back so damn badly! but shes done nothing but ignore me,and not listen to me! i'm done! you guys got your answer!!" zayn yelled,grabbing his letterman jacket and storming outside to the patio. i saw danielle and eleanor telling the boys that it was their fault,that they were immature. "i'm gonna go talk to him..." i trailed off,walking to the patio. i saw zayn staring out at the ocean,his back facing me. i walked up next to him and put my hands on the railing,watching the beach waves. "i didn't know you felt that way about me" i admitted,causing zayn to face me. his eyes were full of hurt and regret,tears at the rims of his eyes. "lexi,you never listened to me. you never got the chance to hear me out. i loved both of you at the same time,and i thought i could be a two-timer. my mind is made up,and i want you." zayn said,putting his hands around my waist. i quickly pushed his hands away and stepped back. "zayn,you JUST said that you were done with me! that you're done!" i whisper-shouted,so that everyone inside wouldn't hear us. he just rolled his eyes and stepped towards me. "lexi,those were lies! my heart still longs for you! my mind still longs for you! I still long for you! lexi,i want you back. i want the chance to show you that this time i won't be a two timer. lexi,my mind is made up. i love you,and i miss you." zayn whispered,stepping even closer to me. "zayn,i-" i tried to start,but all i could feel was my head against the patio wall,and my body gently slammed against it. zayn set his head on mine,his eyes not daring to leave mine. "i'm going to do one thing.i'm going to kiss you. if you kiss me back,then that's how ill know you still love me." he whispered,his lips brushing against mine. i tried my best to stay in my place,but all i could do was push my lips against his,closing the distance between him and me.
