I want to be "that girl"

Im not her

I'm fat, ugly, disgusting and horrible, I know that's what everyone thinks. People are just to shy to admit it, I know I'm not a cover girl, a model. There is no reason to lie to me, don't tell me I'm something that I'm not.  I know I'm not her. I wish I could be her. The girl everyone liked, the one everyone begged to be friends with. The one who knew the whole town, and had tons of boys waiting at her door. I'm not her. I'm the other girl. The one who's never invited to the parties. The one nobody remembers. The one who's always forgotten when the teams are put up I'm gym. I'm that girl. Ive always been that girl. The one who was bullied because of her looks. The one who was bullied for her fat. I'm that girl.
You know that girl in class, who always sits at the back. The girl that never says a word. The one everyone hates. I'm that girl.
Most people don't understand what it's like. How could they?
Most people aren't that girl, most people are the other girl. The one I want to be. The one so many wants to be.

Hi!
This is my first time writing, I hope you enjoyed it.
I'm not doing this for pity or anything, just a way to let my thoughts go.
Please feel free to give me tips!