Erikleen (Some one-shots)

Anyone would want to be with you

Colleen's POV

"I just don't know. After seeing people so in love and them putting each other first. Like, after seeing the look in their eyes and the undefinable amount of happiness they bring each other even when they aren't on the best of terms, just makes me question if what I have is really right." I say as Erik is walking me to my car in the parking lot after shooting.

Erik replies seeming very interested in what I'm saying and thoroughly listening "What exactly do you mean? Are you having doubts about him? Is it just the distance?"

I struggle to find the right words, but just say what comes to mind " It isn't the distance. I am even thinking back to the start of our relationship. When we were getting serious, it wasn't... I guess, this just isn't what I always thought love to be. Is this is what being so in love and finding the one person that completes me and betters me really is, because it doesn't feel like it. He being the 'man of my dreams' just doesn't seem right." I use air quotes to emphasize my point. 

I still don't really know what I'm trying to say and Erik stills seems a bit confused. "I just don't have the 'I know I want to be with you and only you' feeling or the 'you are my person' feeling." I say using air quotes again. We arrive at my car so Erik leans against the hood listening to what I'm saying "I don't feel in my gut that this is where I'm meant to be. Like, when I started YouTube I knew I was making the right move in my heart, even as my mind was screaming at me to stop because I am ruining everything I worked for. Or when I started this show and in casting I knew in my heart who should be cast, especially you Mr. Stocklin" I nudge him with my shoulder.

He laughs a little "I don't want to tell you what to do. I think though that whatever you feel is best is most definitely correct. YOUR heart is the only measure of if this is worth the pain. Or if this is what makes your heart full and satisfies your love and relationship needs. You want someone who you love so much it hurts and that you can't stop thinking about"

"You know, this is stupid. I should be grateful that someone is willing to deal with me and not complain about it all the time. I'm a mess and I found someone who can handle me, I shouldn't be so greedy. No one is perfect and I just have to accept that this is what it is."

"Stop" Erik says. He seems so passionate as he says "You aren't describing somebody who isn't perfect. You are describing a relationship that wasn't built to last. Something that needed to be in your life for a while and you outgrew it and changed and realised it wasn't the best for you. Like, a soulmate. They came into your life and helped you discover who you are. And gave you the experiences you needed to be a better person, but they had to leave because they aren't helping you anymore, they are if anything hurting you. Now, again I don't want to say what you should do, but you aren't being greedy or selfish. You are being a human. You shouldn't settle for someone who you like and doesn't treat you the greatest, or someone who is so kind but doesn't make you feel something so amazing. Never settle. FInd somebody who makes you feel and makes you a better person. That supports you. That is with you through everything."

"Yeah, sure. But there isn't someone out there like that for me. No one would to be with me. Have you met me? No one wants this" I say as I point to myself making a Miranda face. "Those feelings are for people who are better than me. That are more caring and compassionate and-"

" You deserve someone who makes you feel like royalty who treats you like you are on top of the world because honestly there isn't one other person I could think of that comes close to how amazing of a person you are. I know it's cliche but anyone would be lucky to be with you. You are an amazing women with an amazing personality and truly if you were single there would be lines of people waiting to be with you. People would fly over seas just for a chance to get an hour with you. You are truly incredible. I have met you and I know people want this" He says pointing to me.

He is only trying to make me feel better, but I know that nobody who knows me would want to stick around. So, I say in disbelief "Yeah, who?"

He smiles and says "me" then walks away.

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So, usually the stories won't talk much about the past, but I had this idea and I thought I would expand and make it something. Sorry about any errors or whatever. I just wrote this because as I was writing my other fanfic I thought about these potential scenarios that didn't fit with my story so I thought why not write some one-shots. Also, I kept a couple things up to your imagination especially at the beginning so think what you want :D Thanks for reading!! 

P.S. If you want you can comment some suggestions, but if you don't have any that is great too! :D