'I think you need to go to the doctor's'
Do I mother? What for? So they can pump me with the same 'mood altering' placebo bull shit they give you. No. No fucking way. My problem isn't being depressed; it's being surrounded by assholes who think it's okay to constantly mock me, torment me, laugh at my ambitions. Okay so I already do drugs that alter my mood. But I like those drugs. They don't attempt to make me happy, they make me feel free and relaxed. I have no motivation to do anything. Not even the things I love like writing or watching films and tv series. I'm only writing this because I have no-one to talk to. Actually, I have loads of people to talk to, I just hate them all. I'd rather tell strangers my problems. But then again, counsellors never work either. My brain is beyond repair; the damage is done. So fuck all of you. I would never kill myself, I'm too scared of doing that. I don't wanna die but I want to live. And right now, I feel like there's no point.
